- treasured memories

Friday, July 30, 2004

hmm. today nth much. oso dunno wad to blog. i jux control myself not to tink so much of you le. nid to concentrate on studies oso. haix. at bus stop, go home, no chance tok. haix. everytime liddat one. neways, i dunno is of jux courtesy or wad you say byebye to me even though he waws there. is it jux courtesy or izzit wad i thinking. i dunnno and i dun wanna noe. actually i do wanna noe. wad am i toking! ahx! tink i continue on my story then. lolx.

The Memories - Part 2

It was then Kesper realised the true meaning of love. It ain't about telling those precious three words but is to know that within a small corner in your heart, the person you love is always there, untouchable, unmovable. And so, Kesper walked away, still pondering over the magic of love. Courage indeed fail him again but at least he knew deep down in his heart, he loved Flouca deeply. Day by day, the power of love drained the life out of Kesper. Looking from afar each time, the bubbly look of Flouca can make his day happier. This time he was going to talk to her - at least be her best friend. And so with least effort, Kesper was one of Flouca's best friends. They chatted day and night through SMSes. Kesper went around asking about what Flouca like and dislike. He wanted to know everything about his little angel. Still not knowing about the secret love for her, Flouca thought that in no way can Kesper loved her so deeply. Finally one day, Kesper's feelings betrayed him. He plucked up his courage and told Flouca about his love for her. It was then he never heard from her again - Flouca had never took a liking for him. The feeling was again like a thousand prikers pearced right through his heart. Nothing could say how much he loved her. Nothing could say how much he cared. Yet in Flouca's heart there is another guy. Kesper did not know about it but even if he do, he could do nothing about it........

Everytime Kesper tried to talk to Flouca, there was no reply. He thought "why can't you even tell me that you do not even love me?" Weeks passed and Kesper did not get anything from Flouca. Through the night, only slow and romantic songs accompany him. He told no one about his pain. Yet one day, the very friend he told about his love betrayed him. Sooner than he know it, he was the laughing stock of the class. Nothing could have hurt him more. He knew he couldn't do anything about it. But if killing was made legal, at that precise moment, he felt like killing. Long as it may seems, Flouca broke the heart of Kesper a couple of time. Each time he heard the news of she liking another guy, he felt like dying. Kesper skimmed passed the doors of hell as he tried commited something stupid - suicide. He thought that only through ending of his life can solve everything. Only at the brink of death did he come out of his senses. Dying will only make him hurt more.....

to be continued........

Love and Missing: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin

darkside illusions 12:01 AM

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