Tuesday, August 31, 2004
look what i've done..
its been days since i blogged. webby page spoil. oso dunno y. ya nbm. neways, i'm back!!! ah. i'm mad. these few days alot thingy happened. ya. a new life. start afresh. yupz. for guys u maybe wondering wad is going on. nahx. actually oso nth much. juz feel. life is taking its toes. ****** love ya lots. hee. byebye.
when the world turns: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:15 PM
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Friday, August 27, 2004
yays! i noe it!
i love you. i wanna forget you. hope i can truely all forget. hee. i found you. my miracle. tanka for being there for me when i needed it most. you're the answer to my prayer.
=): FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Thursday, August 26, 2004
study.loved
love.love.love.love. hav i found a new one? beats me too. hope the answer come out soon. a maths test was ok. hee. sat e maths. tts all. love.
love, loved: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:33 PM
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
juz another day..
yupz. Today is juz another day passed by. Early in da morning felt so tired. Hmmm. The way I’ve come is already long le. I now use Microsoft word type so they auto change the thingy. Lolx. Nbm. Morning actually wan sleep awhile. Bud cannot cos maths lesson gotto draw two graphs. Physics muz listen as A1 my goal. Haix. Bud still carp around lahx. Lolx.at least I noe how to do the questions ok! Hehe. Hmmm. Chinese lessons more and more easy le. Not so serious lyk first half of da year. Now can breathe easy. Hahax. 2 english actually is slack de. Budden nid do summary so sianx 1/2 . hahax. Alamak. Assembly actually is dharma tok de. Lolx. Budden the person can’t make it. We were there saying sure is wh de papa. Watch porn dao forget time. Lolx. Nahx. After the assembly deciding where to go. In da end, go geylang east kick soccer. Hmm. Scored most goals again. Wa. The old team rrly too good le. Today onli lose one game cos tired. Hahax. Nbm. I love being in da old team. We rox manx! Wahahaha. After tt began to rain heavily. Hmmm. Went to the shelter play ball catching with desmond den go home le. Haix. Alon ein da bus thought of a lot of things. 90% say stay. 10% say move on dude. I’m already halfway to move le. Y juz can’t continue. Haix. If only. Few more weeks if still liddat den forget it. I’m moving on. I think le. If she dun care me, y shld I in return care so much when it’s all nth ne? I am also human. I do feel. If ya ain’t treasuring den so be it. I got nth to say. Not say I wad lahx. Budden sometimes life is tt cruel. Nahx. I’m not saying I’m the best person around bud at least I noe now that wadeva u force, in da end, its nth. Yeah. That’s all. I juz love this quote. “to the well-organised mind, death is just another great adventure”. Yeah. Its great. I juz love it. I dun mind dying bud the thing that holds me back is……… you. Haix. And now or maybe in da future, there’s another you which I do. *love**peace*
Paradise: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
science practical
today practical. screwed up! i dunno. juz tink all my answers all wrong manx. lolx. dunno. i'm trying to do the best le. sorry all the ppl who taught me. haix. nahx. nth more today. played street soccer today. yeah! the best team played today oso! hahax. bhb liaox. me, xiang, cc, daryl and ben. way to go guys! we rox manx! lolx. den go mac slack. reached home so tired sia. lolx. hmm. today nth much. nv saw her too. maybe i rrly on my way le. time distance is rrly a factor bahx i supposed. maybe its time to say yes. how can i not say no. i dunno. hope i can be guided out soon.
light and lighted: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:39 PM
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Sunday, August 22, 2004
its my life
y is the world lyk this. when u gain one, u lose one. isn't there anything tt can be done? the decision i tink shld be made soon. i rrly dunno. there's always a left and right. and when u go left, u cannot look to the right. tts part of life. now again, i'm at the crossroad once again. if i have a choice, i wouldn't wanna met you. cos meeting you brought me some things lyk not letting you go. i dunno. bud if ya rrly nv lyk me or will nv lyk me, den maybe the other road is much clearer. haix. i noe o levels coming. yupz. as i promised, i will do it. nahx. i'm not thinking much. i'm juz wondering which way shld i go. darling ah. how now. got time tell me ok? tanka. byez bloggy. =(
deciding: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Saturday, August 21, 2004
life experience
life is still da same for me. everythings fine today. went to school in da morning for the english enrichment. learn how to tackle comprehension question. keke. still sick today. with flu and cough. after the enrichment, went to geylang east play street soccer. challenged by some outsiders. hmmm. today i lyk siao kia liddat. score 19 goals in 2 matches. wahahaha. i mad le. got most frustration outta me. whenever i shoot, i juz think of the frustration and moody feeling in me and juz let it out. dammit. lolx! its so fun. after the game felt alot better. haix. its rrly time to choose le. bud wad ne? question oso ask le. bud can it be fair? haix. nbm. i hope i get to noe my answers soon. yeah. hope everything is fine. rrly love ya to bits and pieces. keke. buaix!
lovv and being loved: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Thursday, August 19, 2004
yoz bloggy
when the world ain't with u, u juz gotto learn to let it go. even if u cannot do it, u juz gotto. in de end, u cannot be on da same spot. you gotto to let go. u can say forever, bud even the greatest minds tells lies. u can't be. and you noe it. sumtimes its juz so simple. you can't be means u can't be. no nid to force. when there's a feeling there, there will be. even if u can make the person hav feeling for u, it won't last long. deep down u noe it. when another guy comes along and there's a feeling, you're done, you're over. say no more words cos its da end. u may not wan to believe or face up to the reality, bud you muz. there's no other way. lets say for example. A lyks B. he chased her for v long, and finally has feelings for A. bud came C. C lyks B. B had a natural feeling to C. C will tend to have a lower feeling to A after sometimes. its true. unless they have cultivated a very high love ship. it sounds bad bud this is wad i found out after 4 yrs. u cannot force love (which i experienced). love has to be there. i rrly wanna spend my whole life with ya. bud if you dun even gib me da chance, i rrly dunno. maybe i gotto rrly let go. u seems beta with other ppl. i dunno. i dun wanna face up to reality a week before, bud yest, i gotto. face up. and move on. there's rrly nth i can do? maybe. i won't deny i still lyk u. bud i believe if ya not meant for me, i will have to let go. miss you lots. haix. sicky now. maybe its juz the sickness in me. i dunno. *shrugs*
sick sicky: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:25 PM
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004
sianx
yupz. and everything is true now. prelims and o levels are les than 80 days! no much time left dudes! muz rrly mug hard le! i'm gonna brush myself to put aside all those stupd thingy! yesh! muz force. even if you will not be with me. cos i dun wan to get lousy results and can't even gib u happiness eh? *Shrugs* ok. gtg study le. byebye. today nth much. chinese lesson stayed in class while the others go eng. ok lahx overall. so sad nv get b3. actually get b happy le. budden juz a few more marks b3 le. haix. if onli. nbm. byebye!
detemined: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
last fireworks
yeah. today is the last fireworks display. watched it with song, kh, rj, darling and jocelyn. hmm. waited at the mrt for rj for 30 minutes. haix. always i early one. no fun. hahax. reached there saw, cai, wend, cat, zr and some others. sadako was there too? lolx. met the gers there. then went to meet blur pig. blah blah. tok lotsa crapped there. the gers told lame jokes and riddles too. was quite lame i was bluffed. *stuff* watched the fireworks display by singapore. damm nice manx today! alongside with home! lolx. was simply WONDERFUL! wee. after tt poor jocelyn became kinda odd. hope she's alright. den darling told me she was coming to find us. heart skipped a bit. hmm. oso dunno y. saw her near the stage. tink juz ended her hip hop lesson. nahx. nth much though. juz walk walk to the mrt. decided so long where to go. in da end, all went home. lolx. was kinda funnie though. lolx. hmm. at least get to see her. its been sucha long time. haix. time can't turn back. yesh. tts it. i'm thinking to much. nth much. love fireworks. went home, slacked. tml start! full speed ahead! top grades here i come! oh ya. you sucks manx! *won't say hu*
Run away from reality: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:50 PM
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Saturday, August 14, 2004
nv go out.
wa. sianx. today whole day at home chu le go buy lunch and dinner. hmmm. actually today got RC de. budden nb go. she go school becos she got the hip hop dance practice for teacher's day de. hahax. hmmm. woke up at 11++ so long no so late wake up le. keke. woke up watched a show called the outsiders. damm nice manx! hahax. den use comp. dunno y today no mood study. maybe later get sumthin in. hahax. hmmm. use comp so long le. lolx. ah. yup. tanka blur pig and darling worx! neways, they become jie mei le. one call nai jie (lolx!) another call polka mei. lolx. so funnie. nbm. hmm. *Shurgs* miss her lots. tts all. study study! 29 days to prelims ppl! jia you! chemistry and humans, here i come!!!!!!!!!!! =p
Spearhead and bright: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 9:15 PM
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Friday, August 13, 2004
blog.
erh. alamak. yest nv blog oso. this few days oso nv blog. haix. so sad manx. budden muz stay happy eh? no choice. i've made this choice. to leave you alone till untill after o's. i dunno if i'm doing rite anot. i rrly dunno wad to do lahx. i try to lighten the stress u are now. budden. other ppl can love you more. and you dunno. become lyk i ignore you. haix. maybe tts the only way. after o's. budden if ya lyk another guy in this period, i oso can't do anything le. haix. juz hope i've made the right thing. hmm. today night class. did maths there. she was juz there. and den got one time she sat beside him. i dunno. felt a moment of upside down. dunno wad to do. y. y of all. i rrly wanna dun let you feel so pressurized. dun let u feel so stress. budden i watch over and over again. jealousy? tink so. i won't deny. budden once i go, maybe u won't feel so stress. i made the sacrifice. i care for you. i won't say others nb care. bud maybe i tink of you too much first le. haix. i dunno. sorry ppl. i may seem to tink i'm the victim everything is i correct bud tts wad i tink. if ya all ppl dun agree, tell me kkx? cos i wanna noe. haix. scold me if ya muz. ppl told me ya feel pressurized by this matter. haix. i rrly dowan to lose you. i wanna be with ya. no matter how ugly, how bad ppl tink of you. 1 word can only describe you. love.
sad + sad: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:12 PM
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Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Day dAy daY
haix. today lyk any other day. juz tt i today got da chance to say byebye to her bahx. when she was going off, suddenly i juz hav the urge to say byebye. so i called her and said byebye. hahax. so happy. first time in 2 weeks she talked to me. hahax. felt the same feeling all over again. talked for awhile abt her hair. lolx. she cut it! lolx! so cute though. stupid green tea keep going abt say her look lyk village gurl. rrly look damm nice lor. pa jiao de tt green tea. lolx. den she replied my sms juz now!so happy. though 3 nia. budden oso happy. hahax. rrly miss those times. hahax. dunno y. tml gib out chinese o levels results le. dunno wad to feel lehx. scared? excited? dunno. get a B i'm outta of chinese! wee! hahax. dunno. wish everyone good luck den! and oh. to her, good luck for tml orals! hahax. all da best! no chinese again ah. hahax.
: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
study study study!
lolx. today did nth. juz go mac study. i dunno lehx. sorry lehx kang hong. tot can go play pool with ya. bud a lil too late. i went to mac first le. haix. study frm 1pm to 9pm. long horx? brished up on my chemistry. sux one leh the 10 yr series. gib such bo liao de question. hahax. do to mad there. oso so cold dere. lolx. do till shivering manx. lolx. oh ya. yest was so funnie. i forget to say in my yest blog. hahax. i was bowling with peng fei yest den got a grp of malay family came. lolx. got a family member horx, went to bowl into a lane not yet ready den got a strike! lolx. it was so damm funnie! lolx. den got one time they play den throw two balls at a time. lolx. cos is ball sensor so one ball go in the barrier will come down. dey did it dunno 4 times or wad. lolx. so funnie. got one time the ball rebound den the boy go take it. instead of taking it baq he pushed the ball in to let it go thru the machine. lolx. bud becos the sensor will take it as a bowled shot, the person got 0 for it. lolx. so funnie. lolx! hmmm. den they go play pool. they put 2 dollars for 1 game. den they take the balls tt time the ball rolled baq into the pocket. lolx. i was laughing till rolling. lolx. den they shld take the white ball frm the counter. instead they used the ball with green stripes to hit. lolx! i was lyk laughing! lolx. ok. u shld be there. lolx. ok thats all. byebye.
Miss and still missing: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Monday, August 09, 2004
National Day!
ah. its da national day. its a mon. seems lyk a sunday still. hmm. dunno lehx. boring day. went to play badminton for 3 hrs sia. den bowling. wa! now i finally get the hang le. lolx. all my scores above 100 le. wee~~ so happy. newest record. national day junting record. 173! wee~~ ok. tts lame. hahax. hmm. dunno lahx. its 2 weeks le. i dunno. forgotten abt me le? i dunno. hope not. dunno wad to blog le. tink ya studying too. dunno wad to sms you oso. haix. one day i believe, i nid to believe. if not, there will be no us. haix. love you loads. miss ya loads. haix.
Bored and Stuck: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:51 PM
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Fireworks Festival!
waaaa. so late le i still blogging. haix. nbm. its been 2 weeks since she last reply me le. haix. nbm lahx. i'm the guy ma. so waiting is juz normal eh. lolx. today ah. nth much norx. juz sms a few ppl. die le. muz save sms le. hahax. changing plan soon. hmmm. yeah. i dunno lehx. erh. shi min nida go baq to malaysia. den nth le. lolx. all nth much. went to fireworks display again! lolx! lost ming song they all halfway when finding nice place. i and peng fei got "prime" seats sia. saw everything. even the veri low fireworks. hahax. we sat along the highway. damm shiok sia. first time walk on highway, first time sat on the barrier of the highway for 2 hrs! hahax. it was damm nice today manx. tink it is worth it. juz for tt 5 minutes display. hahax. den later contacted my darling. she seems so sick. so i went to find her. sounded damm weak on da phone. poor thing her manx. stomach pain, no $$ no nothing. felt it is normal for a guy to go find her so i went. found her at teh esplanade there. ran about sia. offered to send her home in taxi bud she say dowan. hmm. so we walk walk (with peng fei). found ourselves plaing the westin stamford lift. lolx. take to level 59 den take. down. -.- den went to starbucks sit sit. actually ish i treat dem de. budden pf go snatch. so nbm. tok alot cock there oso lahx. hahax. 11 plus den go. hmm. gave darling 10 bucks to take taxi home frm eunos cos she say she scared of dark. -.- lolx. i went home den. nth to do. so came online blog. hahax. rrly dunno lahx. miss her so much manx. dunno how long can i stand being alone lyk this. rrly veri bad sia. haix. miss miss miss miss her so so so so much!!!! haix. bud wad can i do? love is juz a step away. its juz which step u wan to take. to jump 2 steps at a time, or take it slowly up. life is fair. juz tt i tink its unfair. i dunno y. maybe becos i can't afford to lose her bahx. tts all. haix.
Tired + Miss sick: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 1:41 AM
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Saturday, August 07, 2004
so long nv blog..
yahx. this few days nb blog. erh. nth much though. went to a o level tok today. slept alot in da furst part. den ate 6 chicken wings. lolx. den later went tm eat s11. wa the pancake pizza damm nice manx! *liu kou sui* lolx. erh. den go arcade cc. after tt went to CSC find pf and ston bro. played badminton den bowling. so sianx. came home use comp le. rrly miss her lots manx. becos of studies i am aside. or sumthin liddat? i dunno. i dowan say too. i juz hope this thing can clear up soon. cos i can't standi t anymore. she made a mass sms today oso. saying 30 days to o levels. muz study hard. haix. i tot it can be beta or sumthin. hmm. i dunno. maybe cos i rrly miss those times bahx. tink gotta wait veri long again. alot ppl ask me gib up though. i oso dunno. scared later i lyk last time lyk other ppl die le. i noe i ish v easy lyk other ppl if tt person rrly treat me veri well. bud dunno y everytime still cannot. lolx. sure go baq to you. budden once can, twice think, thrice, no one noes. this few days i oso thinking alot. lolx. and i dunno. if only. if only i can forget you. maybe if one day i can, i'll be happy. budden for now, i love you only. you and only you!
miss miss miss: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:36 PM
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Thursday, August 05, 2004
i'm feeling so left out. ?.?
its another day past. so long no tok to her le. lyk veri bu xi guan. sms her oso nv reply. bud i muz understand lahx now. hee. wonder wassup with her. haix. today heartstring day. did nth much. stupid one lahx. kick the small ball accidentally kick a person. haix. i sux sia. wad can i do? this few days dunno wad happen to me de. gosh. saw her alot during the heartstring. dunno whether wanna tok to her not. i rrly dunno. seems lyk to take a distance from her? den again scared the distance will go so far till the feeling is gone. how ne? i rrly miss her lots! i wanna tok to her! i dun wanna you to feel pressure or wad. i juz wanna.... wanna be with you. tts all. all maybe i can ask for now. i wanna you to be happy everyday. wanna you to smile to me. all i can ask. cos i still love you..... miss you lots melissa. haix.
Angels Brought Me Here ~ Guy Sebastian
ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE
It's been a long and winding journey,
But I’m finally here tonight picking up the pieces and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes
My dreams came true when I found you; I found you, my miracle
If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your LOVE
Every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams came true right here in front of you my miracle
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayer
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angles brought me here
brought me here, to be with you
I'll be forever grateful, oohh forever thankful
My dreams came true when I found you my miracle
If you could see what I see
You’re the answer to my prayers, oh...
And if u could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear that angels brought me here
You know i love you baby
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
Stress + thoughtful: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 9:50 PM
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Tuesday, August 03, 2004
its juz me i tink..
its juz another day. she did not tok to me. neither did i tok to her. though i did. i juz can't stand 1 month without smsing you. feel so painful. y now you nb reply me le. y nv tok to me. y when i'm with you a few days ago, you seem so pissed off? maybe not. so tired. so uninterested. wads wrong. hav i gone too far? y ne? today she wore that specs again. somehow she looks so cute in that. i nv told her. no chance oso. oh yeah. welcome back the old junting cos i'm back. i've decided. if its meant for me to gib up, i'll gib up one day without knowing it. budden for now, i'm not! cos i love you so so much. will you? haix. if onli i knew wad was the change. I LOVE YOU! i can't stop saying manx! y? i still dunno if i shld stay back tml. i hope if i do, i won't be disappointed. *cross fingers* well, gtg. byebye. b4 i go, I LOVE YOU MELISSA!
Lost and hopeful: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:50 PM
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Monday, August 02, 2004
another entry..
nite school was ok. liers and lies still lies everywhere. in this world of mine, i dunno hu to trusting. maybe for now is juz my darling mei mei. if ppl go there is tok cock play, i dunno wads the use. i maybe offensive bud lucky with my discman, it cut off lotsa things. oh yeah. if u wanna go there de reason is study, i tink, u better dun lie. cos it'll make me hate this world more. i bet if blah was nv eva going, u won't go rite? i noe i'm crapping and u may wan to spit at me, bud pls do it so cos i deserve it. i'm juz venting here. screw me, screw my life. can anyone show me they can be trusted and not use me when u nid me and throw me aside when u have finished me? i'll hate you for the rest of your life. if you ain't loving/liking me from the start, say so pls. *begging* cos i'll be better off noeing and sad for awhile than not knowing, feeling so painful and hanging on. wtf am i toking? damm. crap. ignore me ppl. i ain't on the right sense cos i'm juz feeling lonely. y muz all ppl you gib me tt cold shrugs on the shoulder. it rrly hurts my heart. nida break. nida rest. nida sleep. nida you. one day haven even over and i broke my promise. wad is happening. it is you. cos i love you so damm much. if only you can gib me a nice answer. haix. i'm sadding and sadded more and more. hate my life, hate my world. can anyone treat me lyk wad a real fren do? understand and bear with me? i'll be grateful to you for the rest of my life. i dun ask for much. juz thru this time of mine. haix. i bet no one. cos i sux.
MELISSA LIM HUI LING! LISTEN UP! EVEN IF THE SKY FALLS, THE EARTH CRACKS, THE SEA DRIES UP, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART, UNCHANGED, UNMOVED AND UNTOUCHED! COS YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN TAKE MY BREATH AWAY. ONLY YOU! THATS YOU! I LOVE YOU! if only u noe.. I'LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU. NOW I REALISE MY HEART CAN'T TAKE IN ANYMORE PEOPLE! NO MORE PEOPLE. 100% ITS YOU ALREADY! I'M JUZ WAITING FOR YOU TO EXIT THE DOOR OF YOUR HEART, AND ENTER THROUGH MINE. I'LL LOCK IT THERE AND TREASURE YOU FOREVER! LOVE YOU GURL!
Love and Lost: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:30 PM
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I rrly dunno..
2 days down 29 more to go. i'm starting from today. dunno if i'm doing the correct thing anot. i dunno. first, family scold me for anything, everything, den come my stsudies. not up to expectation. frenz can be liers sumtimes. lastly the last thing i nid comes from you. i've been beaten by life. i've been beaten by fate. i rrly dunno wad to feel. i feel so numb. nth could say it. i dun have any mood. mood to even write anything. wad am i doing now? sumtimes i'm juz so tempted to jump down. i dunno. lucky my mind jumps back to sense immediately. love is the exit to many entrance. i hope it does goes out this way. all i could hope for is over. i dunno wad to say. you seems to have shown it all. though i won't deny its hard and the journey is bad. i will still try my best if thats the onli way you won't get hurt. maybe one thing i am happy about is for the first time, i found or should say realise there is a person hu i can tok to and chat with so freely. actually the person is right before my eyes. how come i dinda notice. yest the fireworks display, i met my darling mei. we sat by the river there and chatted. rrly, i can pour everything to her. i dunno y. its lyk she's got this sumthin i can trust. i dunno. maybe i'm juz over reacting too much. haix. *doesn't mean i hav feelings ok tawnka darling for yest. though u dinda manage to make me have a true smile, tanka for caring and chatting. hmm. later still got lessons. i rrly dunno y. juz now saw her at the bus stop. i juz had this feeling i wanted to go over and tok to her. she was juz there. with ger they all. budden i noe, since i made this thing, since you've shown wad izzit, i shld respect it. i acted important and went away. to find ston bro. i rrly wanted to stay. bud i juz couldn't he was there. i dinda want to make things difficult for you. i had no choice. all i could do is to wish ya happy always and leave you to decide.
of all things, the one i tot was so true cos sumone told me happened to me. maybe pf was right afterall. he predicted we two won't be together. it seems so close le. i rrly dowan to believe his words. bud. haix. nbm. i dunno y. i've given myself one month. one month to forget. if you ever change your mind, i'll be there. bud i oso dunno. my fate lies ahead. jia yin was right oso after yest i sat in da middle of a road. if she say she did not lyk you from the start, den she's not worth your love. yeah maybe its true. she oso said y u lyk her so much. i was oso wondering and i still couldn't come up with one. maybe the cloest i can get is maybe the answer is..... her. *cry me
p.s: no more mood to write cos the starting was so screw up tt kesper was together with
flouca. if you all still dunno, its base on a true, rough guideline of me and her though. yeah. maybe i'll juz go straight to the ending.
The Memories Part 4
As the sun set with the starry sky took the place of it, meteor rain starting to pour over. Flouca pushed Kesper away from her. Surprised as Kesper was, he asked why was that about. The only reply Flouca gave was "i'm not worth your love. there are much more better girls out there. maybe we weren't meant to be. maybe we weren't meant to meant. maybe we weren't meant to love. maybe, we should juz be strangers." As heartbroken as he was, Kesper knew something. Love cannot be forced. what is meant to be yours will be. what ain't will never be. Though he loved Flouca so much, the only way to show he truely love her is to forget her and from now, he will start. Lying to his heart, if only Flouca will change her mind one day, he'll still be here. There's just one line that Kesper wanted to say to Flouca. "Love is the exit to many entrance. And i've found the exit to my heart and the entrance to your heart. I L-O-V-E Y-O-U." knowing he had no more chance to say this line anymore, kesper turned his back just as Flouca did and both they turned and walked away, this time both without a backwards glace, they walked to the darkness in front of them and parted, each to the world of their own.....
The End - Based on a true rough guildline on a true story. =(
SAD and LOST: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 4:55 PM
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