Tuesday, January 31, 2006
happy cny~!
oh guys! happy cny to all! hope u all receive lotsa ang bao! hahas. cny this yr is so so so so sians. i wonder y too. gosh. hais. its ok. maybe i'm thinking too much tts all. hahas!
yeah. after cny 2 weeks den is exams week le. so fast. hahas. cny this yr i tink i got 200 only. 100 is frm my parents. =.= oh well. guess the economy is not good. went pool with ms on the first day. second day spent at arcade. oh gosh. how boring and no life can this get.
hmm. i kinda lost interest in drums and guitar le. i dunno y too. maybe i growing old le. or maybe i'm juz tt lousy to play on. every now and den, you have been appearing in my mind. i wonder y too. since tt day. gosh. bud somehow u give me the feeling its impossible. i oso dun dare ask much too. cos i've never had fate in love before. valentine's approaching. my fren ask me go ask you out. budden i stil dun dare to open my mouth and ask. i wonder y too. maybe its cos i juz dun dare bahs. bud with you on tt day, it'll be my new year wish come true.
yeah. stressed up this starting of the year. no luck in mahjong, neither in my drums nor guitar. argh. someone slap me awake pls! its the new year yet i'm so negative. hais. should i ask someone out on valentine's? or juz lyk every year, lonely and cold. argh. save me bahs.
孤单 + 寂寞 = 98%
想念 + 希望 = 99%
答应 + 快乐 = 100%
for ppl hu still dunno.. use encoding bahs. it'll helps. =)) xD wan an to all. happy cny again!
darkside illusions 2:32 AM
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Friday, January 27, 2006
time out. xD
finally can catch my breath to blog a little. got a rather rough week. catching a high fever of 40 degrees on monday nite. den the next few days were hell. lucky i recovered fast. =)) hmm. finally most projects are done and my stress is getting lesser. oh well. i'm looking forward to the holidays. really. lols!
valentine's approaching too and i have no one in mind really. its good to spend with someone at least i can get more closer with. be it friend or wad. bud i guess its hard too. most ppl nowadays are attached or juz wouldn't bothered to go into relationships. lols! guess my new yr resolution aint coming true afterall..
yeah. exams nearing and i hope i wont fall sick again. medicine is really killing me. churning inside my tummy making me giddy the whole day. argh. lols! open hse was a blast too. met lotsa new friends there. hahas. bud somehow i wish it will come again. lols. i somehow regretted not knowing more ppl frm the start. being kinda anti only towards the end. bud overall, its a good experience of how things work. i guides 2007, here i come. =)) next event to look forward will be FOC/FOW! if i really got in. hahas. cant imagine this. will be more of a blast den i guides i supposed. freshies coming in and stuff. cant wait to be a gl again. xD hope my empire is a good one. i wanna make more friends in poly really. best is noe everyone and everyone noes me. xD den at least when i graduate and on the streets, at least i can say hi to someone i know. =)) all these will come under memories and its worth keeping.
poly yrs are short. bud i wan to take away as many things as possible frm these 3 yrs. yeah. more friends. and hope by the end of this yr, i can find my bai xue gong zhu. xD alright. time for some toddles. xD gotta be in school at 12 tml. so thats all peeps. wan an le. =))
darkside illusions 12:34 AM
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
爱情
爱情真奇妙。不知不觉的你又会在掉进这个迷里。爱情来的很突然。但为何我的爱情
故事永远没结局的呢？我喜欢人，但人不喜欢我。我不喜欢人，人却喜欢我。到底
什么时候我才会找到我的白雪公主呢？
我已默默的爱上了你。只不过你不知。我想你知却怕被拒绝。这一个月来，我跟你
的时间虽然不多，但已足够让我迷上你了。你什么时候才能猜出我对你的心议呢？
天啊！救救我吧！ =((
情人节该怎样度过？你说自己都不知有没有空，但我却很想在这一天里，跟你度过。
好想好想。。。 希望这个故事将会有个好的结局。。。 =((
feeling lost? lols! too bad. xD
darkside illusions 2:27 AM
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
confused mind. shattered dreams
oh yay! open house in 1 day's time. cant wait seriously. xD meeting new faces to tp. hope this yr lotsa nice freshies will come. woots. yeah. projects handing in are near. so is the final exams. =.= gosh. this term is really so so short.
here's a summary. hope i dun get anything wrong..
this thurs: CMSK grading
this fri: FNDB hand in
next mon: IDES hand in
next wed: OOPG hand in, CMSY hand in
next thurs: japanese listening test
the week after project week: study week
the week after study week: exams! bah~~ T.T
alright. so many things. juz add in a japanese role play thingy during tutorial and another test for that. gosh.. oopg i'm doing shitty stuffs. ides, i tink i'm the worse in class. dun say fndb and cmsy le. hais... looks lyk IT stuffs aint for me. T.T
anyway.. yeah. doing works and stuffs here and there. yest juz got 3/4 of my new year stuffs. actually i'm left with one more jeans. should i buy a cap? gosh. my money. T.T maybe i shld use my hong bao money i guess. oh well. it seems every year my hong bao $$ is getting lesser and lesser. i dunno y. guess its cos of the economic bahs. sad case. everyone's giving lesser. form 12 to 10 to 8. gosh...
yeah. another thing. i feel so argh. why do ppl change so much? from someone i know. when ppl's busy they'll juz ignore other ppl arnd them. juz talk and interact with ppl that is of use to them or smth. i really dunno y. hais. ppl are lyk juz going off. i juz feel i'm the black sheeps for u guys already. feeling so out of touch and reach. oh well. guess its me thats changing. i really dunno wad more can i do. seems lyk i'm not frm the world of u guys nemore. cant click. and i tot we can go on more. foolish me. foolish lex.
yeah. juz another thing. valentine's approaching. and i still dunno wad to do. should i juz ask and have another setback? or shld i juz spend that very day all alone? i dun dare to ask. someone pls teach me how. hais. i dun wanna spoil everything. bad experiences really hold me back now. yet somehow i keep dreaming of tt day to come. how? hais.. lex, u really changed alot. u really become more and more. eh... no more guts to do this kinda things. guess its cos i'm hurt enuff. thats all. tatas.
darkside illusions 2:48 PM
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Tuesday, January 17, 2006
stressed...
finally i can find some time to blog. xD wee~ projects are flooding in and i'm doing work to 5am already. gosh. time is precious mans! saying tp is a slack school is really *toot*. =x
neways, yeah. nth really much going on. open house is coming! this thurs! and i'm all excited! the mass dance, i guides dance. so happening! + the ever nice JAM AND HOP! woots! hope its a blast. heard chee keen is performing drums... T.T when will it be my turn lehs. hahas! yeah. moving on.. today we kana pwned by our IDES tcher. saying he will check our progression today. all chiong. in the end. he nv come to school today. he PWNED US THAT OMGWTFIMBABBQSPIDERMAN! =x ok nbm. yeah. did mostly of my work already. thanks andrew for helping me looking thru my jap script. appreciate alot. thanks dude! =))
oh well. thanks for those guys hu assured me. really touched. =)) i'll try to fork out time k? i can do it der. be patient with me yeah? love you guys.
somethings i shouldnt know juz happened. oh well. to that guy. i dunno wad happened to you. bud u are a good fren to me though we noe each other for not very long. i don't want to see u so sad can? everything can be solved. whether it suits u or not, life needs to go on. dun brood over too much. if possible, juz let it go. =))
yeah. memories are indeed worth looking back. i juz found my sec 1 pic lying arnd. compare to how i looking now. red, brown, orange, black hair.... its so different. i really cant imagine if i'm standing next to my sec 1 self now. friends come and goes juz lyk the wind. one day u're having the best time of ur life with them, the other moment, ya juz a stranger standing under that shady tree. lyk wad nicholas bro blog once said, proximity friends. i had lotsa frenz back in sec school days. many have been thru with me so many things. yet now, the only sec school friends i'm in contact is ming song, peng fei and blur pig. the others. seldom talk. if i nv talk to them, i'll juz be a proximity fren. once i tot they will be my best fren of all. sharing everything. yet now, if i dun make the first move, i'll be left alone trying to do my projects. oh well... this life and i've got thru with it. once gone, it'll never return. no matter how hard u try... there's some wishes in me that i want to fufill before everything really comes to a dead end. yet somehow i juz dun want/dare make it materialise. i guess thats becos.. i'ma coward.. yeah. nites all. projects and tests, here i come!
darkside illusions 12:18 AM
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
baboo me..
ok. i'll do some quick blog. not much ppl here anyway. hmmm. nth much this few days. juz work and more work. lols! i kinda lyk this type of hectic lifestyles. juz 1 thing i dun lyk is early school. lols. ok. juz dyed my hair. at first i tot was kinda screwed up. bud now i kinda lyk it. i tink it suits me. juz hope i guides wont kill me for this. =x lols!
anyway, ya. there's nth much frm me too. actually got some things to say bud i forget wad to say. =.= gosh! oh well. guess i'll keep it in my mind for now. hee. no one really reads anyway. hmm. i'll pass it. argh. i hate it! ><
i hate some feelings in me though. i wonder y. i feel so far out frm the people arnd me. lyk different worlds or smth. the way i do things is totally different. we've drifted apart i can feel. no longer on the same topic or smth. i feel so far apart in my heart sometimes that i feel that i want to let it all out. bud somehow i cant find someone to really talk to. mostly is juz the hi-bye type or juz busy with their stuffs. i sometimes really envy girls. they have such close friends to confide in yet i think sadly to say. i have none. mostly is bo chup me one. suddenly i have the feeling to juz leave school and juz go find a job. i dun belong anymore in their world. thats somewhat i think. i feel so distance. everyone is getting together bud i'm lyk the anti-social one now. i tried to go into their world bud i tink my method is wrong. i was laugh at for not being lyk an IT student cos of my work and things. i really feel so far out. so far from their standard. thats how lousy i am now. oh well. forget it. i guess i'll quieten down these few days or so..
i wanna someone to tok to really. both we can share everything out and will sacrifice each other times to hear each other out. guess i still gotta wait somemore. yeah. nbm. hurt yes i am, bud wad can i do? i nid to change... i nid to. seeing everyone fitting in so well yet the dark light shines upon me. i say ppl are too negative abt life and that i dun really lyk them bud when it really happens on u, you'll feel it. hais...
suan le bahs. i juz let it go by nature. i believe someday we can make it or smth. leave me out for now..
suddenly there's this tot of me coming in. i really miss those sec school days. my class and i. playing street soccer together... having class competitions lyk see-hu-can-squeeze-the-most-oil-out in other terms called the oilympics. so crappy. we had question of the day lyk john is 1.65cm, mary is 1.58cm. how tall is peter? this type of questions. asking the tcher to solve, giving rewards. i really miss those times! i wan it back! i really do miss my sec school bros. yes! peng fei, i do miss those crappy times! ming song! raymond! bud no matter how hard i shout, it remains the same. i'm standing soliditary in my world. unable to mix with the current crowd.
the 2d gang. we used to be so close after the o's. yet now i've drifted apart frm u guys. i noe its my fault that i cant make it for most of ya gathering. bud i really miss those times. auntie's bday. ahgirl's bbq. her. yeah. bud somehow everything have drifted away from me. i really miss you guys so so much. her was exceptionally much. there's too much in me that i want it back. bud really, distance really kills time. now all left in me is the photos we took as a gang and everything. somehow i feel, thats the best i can do already... paths i took made a great twist. i rejected the chance. i pushed it away. and now everything seems to piece right back. blur pig told me to go for it. yet i dunno y i cant. its juz i tink me again. useless bum. i think its juz cos i feel the distance is too far to piece the puzzle back. that's y till now i still dun dare to go for it. well i guess. in da end, the problem stills lies in me. bah~~
crap! i'm getting all emotional again. i said was a short blog bud my emotions took me away with all these long talk. wth is wrong with me these few days! i guess its the stress and workload i'm having now bahs. or i think is juz me that is the prob. forget it. i suck and that's final. i shall stay happy in my soliditary world. =)) u go lex!
darkside illusions 2:17 AM
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
boring
ok got some time to blog out of my tired and sick schedule. oh yay! finally got my ezlink card back! yays! and sentosa on sun! double yays! oh well. sat there is i guides. i wan to go. bud sickness make me half hearted. bud hu cares! i guides go u go we go! xD
anyway, got some stress off myself with 2 games of dm and 2 games of gf today! yays! i wonder y i playing lesser and lesser le. y ah? die le. i feel i deproved alot. currently even worse den alot ppl hu started arnd my time. T.T i juz dunno y lahs! i hate myself sometimes for being so weak. cant even play fast songs constantly well at 200bpm. i'm hopeless. hais..
yeah. i've given up on love le. nth works out fine for me. everything either turns out bad for me, or i'm at fault. i had enuff. i shld have more self control of my feelings le i guess. sad case for me. hope i can do it bahs. seems lyk my new year resolution will not come true either le. it all depends on fate.
juz yesterday, i went to visit da doctor. while waiting i look thru their glass doors. and there i see this two guys singing new year song playing frm their car. dancing along to it. at first i tot they will siao.. budden look longer, they were doing for a girl. i mean 1 of them. courtship is so sweet i tink at that time. anyway, after those songs, the guy knelt down on the floor and shouted so loud that even i can hear. "WILL YOU MARRY ME?"
ok. i noe the sentence is kinda old-fashioned. bud wad i saw next was so sweet. the girl came running down in tears and hugged the guy and shouted loudly too. "YES YES!" awww.. so sweet. how i wish i had a relationship so sweet too. oh well. i guess not for now. i'm having project self-control. bud i really love to be in love. both parties have things to talk, going school. argh! i nid to kick away this habit! >< till den. tataz.
heaven plays the strings of fate. fate pulls 2 person together, bud destiny push them apart. i wish my love story was nice and sweet. at least there's one i will always remember in my heart. history nv reapeats. i guess i'll juz give up. wan an..
darkside illusions 1:48 AM
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Wednesday, January 04, 2006
BLOG!
alright! i'll blog! so how's my drawing? still acceptable mahs? waa.. today i'm freaking tired till i cannot stand it le.. gosh. i nid sleep! ok. so here's part B of my new year's resolution:
- A at least 2 of my subs
- Never again rush for work until i go mad
- dun slack when test/exams are coming
- treat everyone good
- noe at least 1/3 of the population oin TP
yeah. thats part B. part A.. bro lets keep ours as a secret. hahas! oh mans! how i wish my sec school frenz! meet up soon kks! hahas. tml the dr william at tp to break the guiness world record thing. hope i can get some sleep afterall. >< i'm tired, my body is aching. someone help me. T.T
the girl i looking at aint looking in my direction. >< take care all..
more sleep
darkside illusions 7:49 PM
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
OTC!
sorry for the lag of updating again. was in camp! OTC 05/06! woots! really had a great time there. its juz lyk i'm being in FOC again. juz that its not tt crowded. haha. i hope i can go to FOW/FOC sia. really wanna be there. i miss those times. i regret not being tt active in XEON. oh well. its ok.
this OTC rocks! i was in CENTIS! and we won the best empire! hahas! i made lotsa new frenz there mans! lots and lots! woots! really enjoyed myself there. thanks CHAO AH GANG! hope we together in the sub empire as gl come FOC/FOW! woots! CHAO AH GANG consist of...
chao ah ting - me lahs! xD
chao ah xian - wan xian! (frances)
chao ah nie - jeanie!
chao ah lian - rachel!
chao ah lin - maybelin!
chao ah stan - stanford!
chao ah ling - mong ling!
chao chao - sean!
hahas! u guys rocks! oh well. theres this one girl in mantis (another empire). dunno y keep catch my eye. hmm. i wonder y too. wanted to do some initiative. budden..... i dowan. dunno y. theres something in me that says stop. i hate myself sometimes for all these feelings. oh well... may we ren shi one day. hahas!
back to where i was. yeah! after OTC the next day, i went DBG. i wonder y i lost my voice there. =.= bah~~ i was supposed to lose it during OTC! hahas! hmmm. nbm bahs. ya. den nite time i walk orchard. with david? oh gosh! so... argh! bud i really gotta thank him. how gay he is. he still spend my new year day with me. oh well. guess its fated. i'll nv have a girl during the festive season. how i wish. hais... nbm bahs. hmmm. yeah. went home, felt weak and sick. currently having headache, sore throat and everything. >< feeling hot inside too. hais. forget it. somethings are juz lyk tt. hahas. my new year resolution doesnt seem to be coming and nearer or anything. guess i gotta take everything slow.. hmmm. happy new year to all...
darkside illusions 1:08 PM
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