Tuesday, August 30, 2005
bleach-ing
ok. i'm back! sorry ah. the last post i was pms-ing. =x woops. ok. the 'holidays' start alreadi. hahas. gosh. seriously. someone push me to study can! i so slack nowadays. hahas! gosh.. iiso. i nid to conquer u! argh! save me! oh. i tink i'll be cutting down on drums and guitar juz lyk knnth! DMV2 here i come! xD hope its nice though. today went to study in da afternoon den went bugis and plaza. met wendy meii at mac during studying. she chio ler. lols. budden she go wu yuan wu hu ask me her friend chio not. hahas. =x hmmm..
ah ba ba, ba ba ba! thats juz words. stress. hahahas! hmm. nth much this few days. felt ok. juz bleaching everyday. =x xD u may not noe, bud bleach is the 2nd best anime i watched so far after naruto! 8 out of 10! gotta watch it guys! lols. hmmm. yeah. nth much though. wed go back sec school for tcher's day. meii ahs, wan go out? if not i go ps again. argh. hahas. hmmm. nbm. friday is daryl's bbq. den nth much. monday iiso. argh. save me again. oh ya. go KUROSAKI-KUN! =x
darkside illusions 1:35 AM
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Friday, August 26, 2005
back strain. pain! T.T
boo hoo! i tink my back is severly strained. yesterday pull weights. gosh. its damm freaking straining can. i wan to die ler. the weights are crazy. gosh. its lyk 20kg weights over ur head all these. argh. i noe to some ppl its light lahs. budden cos i smaller size these weights can kill u see. T.T bud i endured pass ler. gosh. seriously i tink weights aint for me. den today wake up. hais. back ache. bend down oso got problem. first experience is i go brush teeth. wan go spit water bend my back machiam wan break liddat so pain. i immediately sprung up sia. T.T hahas. bud its ok. at least i noe i getting stronger. i really wanna be bigger in size a little since i not tall. hahas. =P
argh. shant tink too much. did my vislit. yays! finally all down! its time for full concentration for iiso. my worse subject. wanna at least score a b or b+. it'll be great for an A. =x tts too much i guess. i'm one of the worst in results for my class. everyone seems to be high in their results recently. with nice websites all these. hais. ;_;
den oso. thanks everyone who talked to me. bud its ok. juz confused. if only love was arnoud. hmmm. hais. its been quite some time since i last fall in love ler. i wonder wads next. bad flirt lex! u sucks can! bai chi yi ge. argh. guess i gotto do some personal reflection before i sleep tonight ler. cya guys. bless u all. =))
darkside illusions 12:59 PM
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Thursday, August 25, 2005
auntie's celebration
i swear i wan to blog first. alright. today was juz another passing day. juz came back frm kai wen's bday cele. was fun and wacky with the ex 2D! woohoo! simply love them all. hahas. neways, auntie's bday bash was erh... lame bud lotsa jokes. remember those stupid times. took lotsa crappy photos too. hahas. u wont believe some. xD wahahas! ok lahs.. nth more for today. tml DB muz rest more liaos. T.T
sometimes i really dunno wad i doing this pass few months. feel lyk living in a blank. y did i choose this step i oso dunno. seriously. i was given a chance yet i refused. y? cos i tried to be stubborn. sometimes i really hope i can go back time. this few months was lyk a walking zombie in the living liddat. dunno heading for where. minds went wild. everything in a chaos. how i wished time could juz go back 6 or 7 months earlier. maybe things would have changed now. maybe everything. i dunno. now my life is in a daze. walking down this street. saying yes anyhow. ruining my own life. yet somehow i know wad i want inside. yet somehow i know it'll never happen. i tried to. bud in da end. my mind gave in. wad is wrong with me i simply dunno. if somehow i can reverse time maybe i would have done better. in life there is lotsa decision. bud 1 wrong step. that's it. maybe i'm not good at words bahs. hais. wake me up frm this dream. shake me to reality. this is a bad dream. hais.
if a chance is passed it'll never come back. yet somehow deep in me i dunno y i want it back. =)) peace to all. nites. enjoy the pics..
auntie's bday cake
blow the candles!
make a wish auntie!
ah ger's idea. ><
ahger and auntie
da girls
everyone! weee~~
me me!
who's that on the road? gosh!
on clearer look.. its me! ahahaha!
the girls again. auntie face is cutted off!
close ur mouth pls auntie. =P
darkside illusions 1:21 AM
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Dragon Boat Selection Test
ok i'll blog today before i go sleep. gosh. i've been skipping lectures now. dunno y. aint in da mood. maybe cos i aint good in iiso so i dun bother to go. prsp oso finish so dowan go. c maths. another waste of time and its lyk the earliest class? *yawns* hahas. neways, this few days do project. now left 2 more. den is study week. yays! after tt exams 2 days den holis! double yays! cool. poly sure is fun. met lotsa new friends. all so different frm sec school. i got to say. the freshie alot fit zai sia. look at DB alone can liaos. kaos. 20 pull-ups lyk nth liddat. gosh.. wanna cry liaos. run oso run so fast. argh. nbm. hmmm. yeah. finally got time come so blog a little. hehe.. yayness! siew fong is mine. my laopo. wahahas! xD argh. ok lahs, aint saying much. very tired due to DB test today. gave my everything liaos.. hahas..
love is nth bud juz another chapter of hurt.
My Dragon Boat results today:
1st event (Pull-ups) --- 15
2nd event (Sit-ups in 1 mintute) --- 60
3rd event (Pumping 2 sets in 1 minute 3 minutes break in between) --- 83, 91
4th event (2.4km run the school track) --- 10 minutes 30 seconds)
hope i can get in though i meet the criteria. cos my attendance not tt good. T.T
darkside illusions 1:39 AM
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Sunday, August 21, 2005
PROJECTS!
*phew* i finally can blog a little. i finished my main projects nmm and prsp ler. finally. *proud*. xD wahahas! left reports to make. den do digim and vislit. can't wait for the long break to start. den can find ppl go out. weee~! anyone wants me during ur holidays? tell me ok? cos i'll be drumming if u all nv jio me out. T.T lyk pool or erh sports. anything! wanna chill after this stupids projects. weee~~ stress off! will come back soon..
wish me luck for DB test on tues. =))
darkside illusions 5:11 AM
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
ok fine. i'm going to blog now before i start any work. argh. muz discipline to at least blog can. wahahas! anyway, happy bday nic! oh gosh! i juz remembered! i haven hit nic the last time. argh. i'm gonna do it tml. a hard hard one. xD today went school. gave nic present. our class yeah all wished him. how i wish my bday is on a schoolday. T.T every year mine's either a holiday or a weekend. hais. hahas. no frenz of alot to peii me for the day. hahas. and every year out of so many contacts only lyk 10 will wish me or remember. some dun even remember. == gosh. ok fine wadeva. xi guan ler. hahas. bud today really happy to see nic so happy. =))
yeah. prsp a headache. tcher say muz use switch loop. argh. and i got so many things to figure out. argh. i'm gonna do that. hahas. and oso. add new methods. hais. and den i wan redo my webby! it looked so dead. hais. help me ah lao tian!!! T.T ok fine. aint wasting any more time. hahas.
anyway, love is complicated. bud somehow i wish to be in it. dunno y. yet there's no one. hais. nbm. i'm still waiting for you to come lehs. faster lehs! argh.
ok. some yest iiso presentation pic and some of nic bday pic. enjoy. =))
the 3 bros. josh, nic, me. cool eh? =))
my grp. josh, joyce, me, grace, nic
nic posing. =P
me in formal. erh. funnie. =((
me and josh. i look lyk ET and josh lyk ah beng. =x
my back view. cool? x.X
grabbing balls? =x
my grp with out project
nic prezzie i bought! nice rite!
the burfday boi!
i forced them into this pose. =P
darkside illusions 11:28 PM
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
love advices? wahahas!
ok i'll blog now since i have da mood. hahas. aint abt those shity day'[s life i'm gonna tok abt. i'm gonna tok abt a thing dat most ppl will get hurt in - love. =))
yeah. i aint saying i'm that damm good lahs. budden frm experiences i guess. hahas. wad is love ne? try killing a rabbit, a cat. how do u feel? do u bare to kill it ne? if yes den i bwg liaos. >< if no then dats the fundamental of love ler. y izzit u dun dare to kill one? becos there is a special type of chemistry between u and that animal. same, y izzit u dowan to see a person sad? becos u love that person. love is complicated. real complicated. i really dun understand how can ppl last that long. not that i cant. bud. how is it that both parties can stand each other for so long? i wanna try. hahas. nahs nahs. back to where i am. ><
sometimes when a cople is experiencing major problems, dun always try to solve it. sometimes these things are things that pull both people together u see. if u believe in wad u call love den fight for it. let these problems come, face them bravely. i recently saw a couple experiencing that. and i hope i've done something for them. for now they've reached a year alreadi. thats so sweet. and they're going strong. though the gurl sacrifice more, bud the guy does his part too. they learned from their mistakes. and they go out fine. really happy to see them together. is actally how they handle things. the guy accompany the gurl when he's free. the gurl waits for him when he's busy. both spends time together. caring even at the slightest thing. dat is how they lasted. this they, is my dao sao and my bro. wish u two long long. happy 1 yr. =)) this remind me of lipteng and aurelia. i wonder how they are. this guy once had week legs cos to excessive cold water. the gurl did not abadon him. they stood strong. and if i not wrong they are at their 2nd yr +. its so sweet can. =)) wish u two can grow old together.
hu says love cant last forever? at such a young age at sec 3 and sec4, ppl going at 1 yr and 2 yrs. everything is possible. believe in love, trust there will be this miracle, fight for your dreams. gurl, u noe hu i'm toking abt if u can read me. wahahas. things shld be said out. confiding in someone takes trust. i'm not that someone. tell the one u love very much. he's the one. share the problems, find the way out of this darkness. sometimes things aint as hard as it seems. if u try harder i believe one day u can achieve wad u wan. forever-ness. dun be bothered by small things. aint worth it. work on how to face this problem. =)) i believe in you. so u muz believe in yourself too. =)) show me that strong side in you. yeap! jia you jia you! *shake pom pom* woohoo! last forever lyk wad u say huh! if not i dun believe in you ler. wahahas! my trust is expensive can. money cannot buy one. wahahas!
ok lahs. i end liaos. phew. projects piling up.
tatas
to all lovers out there: last forever! =))
darkside illusions 1:54 PM
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Friday, August 12, 2005
=))
ok. since i have the time now, i'm gonna blog. lols. ok. i've restrain myself to playing games very long. lols. started on my projects too ler. hope i can make it all in time bahs. hais. getting stressed out sia. projects and everything. and DB test is coming. end of this month. heard only 20 can make it thru. i got a feeling i cant make it thru sia. how ah. argh. nbm that. exams are round the corner too. hmm. gotta get a grip on everything. hahas.
next sem class change ler. got a feeling that i dowan leave this class. hahas. weird rite. startin of the yr i was begging to change. bud after 6 months, i dowan ler. see how much things have progressed. hmmm. thats how funnie time works. maybe there's some reason i want to change. cos i cant stand some ppl though. bud overall its still veri not happy to change bahs. hope i can do sumthin abt it.
some nites i felt lonely. sitting there. thinking of lotsa things passes thru me. 16 yrs. wad have i done? sad to say. nth at all. i cant satisfy my own needs. i cant find out wad i really wanted till now. wadeva i do its lyk so unlyk me now. i nid to know where i want to head. i want someone to guide me. bud in this world i feel so lonely now. so weird feeling. somebody, save me. hais.
tip of the day: never break promises you made. for your love one will get hurt even by a little thing u say.
realisation of the day: ppl single will tend to lyk to be attached. yet ppl in attached hope they can be single someday. love is something both parties should handle well. it aint one sided that only 1 party shld do something. both parties shld make the love happy. sacrifice for each other. not as in the guy shld do everything for the gurl and the gurl can juz rest there. or the girl muz do everything for the guy and the guy can be with their friends. both parties shld do something. and that applies for me..
to the universe and beyonf. bless everyone..
darkside illusions 2:42 PM
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Sunday, August 07, 2005
sians...
fine. i'll update a little. wahahas. i'm at a erh lost rite now. y? cos too many games to play ler. and i got lotsa projects to do! argh! help wo ah! die liaos lehs. recently i mean yest got a guitly gear XX game on my pc. yay! with joystick one. double yay! budden. argh.. the arcade mode fight 5 pl jiu error ler. sians sia.. cannot fight ino de. i wonder is game problem or my comp. argh. hahas. seriously i nid to do my nmm and erh... photoshop soon. if not nth to hand in for the 20 days ler. T.T lao tian jiu wo ah! if i dun do photoshop too that gayness guy will come haunting me too sia. argh. i nid more photographs mans. hahas! someone jiu wo!
.:: if u meant to say. pls say. dun keep me waiting ::.
darkside illusions 1:45 PM
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
tired body =.=
argh. dammit. sorry for the lag of updating this few days. was gaming though. yeah. budden oso part to tired lahs. this week was weird. there was a one day sick in me. i wonder y. spoiled my monday. maybe due to monday blues. argh. yest was dragon boat! weee. budden was damm freaking tired mans. kaos. weights can seriously kill me can. hais. maybe i'm not cut out for weights i suppose. and today, my whole body aches. the chest, the shoulder, the leg. argh. they are so worn out. *pity them* hmmm. ccn day coming up. 2 stalls to tend. bud class one is compulsory. hahas. hope can make it to the DB stall and help out. hahas. DB rocks! =P
yeah. this screw up thing oso. argh. damm sick can. i tot fri we was supposed to hand in one assignment. draw 101 pictures on a selected theme. in da end. it was changed to tml. and i haven even done 1! AHHHHHHHHHH! this is damm freaking sick again. argh. so many workload now again. cannot slack ler. dun tempt me to play maple anymore. dun tempt me to play san andreas. dun tempt me to play RBO. >< hahas! hope i can make it thru this difficult time. hahas. sometimes i tink at night. is history repeating? bud for now. tataz, take care. =))
darkside illusions 9:14 AM
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