Monday, February 28, 2005
Chalet...
woots. i nv blog this pass 2 days cos was at chalet. ok. chalet was somewhat boring bud there were interesting parts. we played monopoly throught the nite. can u believe it. lols. roy was there i hav nv lost before and i will not lose this time. lols. den veri funnie. no matter how melissa throw the dice, she wont lend in roy hotel. budden. no matter how roy throw the dice.. he will land in melissa's hotel. we were laughing lyk mad can. lols. roy keep dowan give up so played thru the nite. lols. before this game we were chatting around. den she turned weird. went to sit at the beach alone. =X so i went over chit chat. drew some stupid things den played with sand. hen lame la. lols. 1st nite nv sleep lor. woke up went home with xiang, auntie and her. walk halfway rain so big. =X alamak. xiang and wen took cab go. i and her waited at the taxi stand for the rain to stop. was freaking cold can. lols. wait and wait. she keep playing with the water. lols. lyk those small ger ger. =P alamak. in da end took 31 home. hmm. nth much le. reached home orh orh. nite time go back. played mahjong.. den play pool with auntie and her. kao. she learn veri fast lehs. =X hahas. den went back chalet. i and her see hu sleep first. lols. drank a lil martell. gosh. she fell first! wahahhas! ok lame. next morning woke up den nth much bahs. went home orh.. den go play pool with songs. finally got the mp3 frm him ler. lols. den nth much lor. giddy go play drum. not leauge cup bud i cant bother to watch. >.< nahs. oops. is 12 ler. few more hours get my results. all da best to me. =X lols.
really miss those two days. how i wish i can turn it back. maybe i can noe wad to do. hais. bud this is reality. wad is done is done. no use doing anything. hais. wish me luck bahs. feeling down now. hahas. oso dunno y. =X nites.
for the love of god: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 12:00 AM
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Friday, February 25, 2005
boring me..
awww. what the. lols. today nth much happen lehs. juz went bishan to get my singpass thingy done. mans. while waiting watch their tv. mr bean. =X lols. abt the one he changing in the car to go for a dental appointment. laugh until i siao sia. lols. ok la. not siao la. juz giggled. lols. hmm. anyway.. after that went to j8 walk walk. bought some ankle socks. i'm seriously in nid of some. lols. 12 bucks for 3. hmm. still considering abt the mp3 mans. 100 bucks. aww. anyway.. after j8 went to esplande to break. kaos. still cant spin lehs! so pek chek. tried to do turntable. hand damm pain. bud fun. nth much though. 2 NUS get came down tok to us. saying they nid info on breakers. so chatted awhile. took some photos. yeah. wadeva. hahas. den nite time go bugis played drums. I PASSED TWINKLE STAR EXTREME AND SAILING DAY EXTREME LE! lols. so happy. bud was quite mad la. was sweating lyk hell. hahas. how ah. i feel more and more poser. bud i'm enjoying it. hmm. maybe lyk wad hafiz say. wan be poser can. at least noe how to do hip hop. dun be lyk some. dress and act lyk a poser/hip hopper budden dunno anything. hahas. quite true la though. i nid to know hip hop before you dare to be a poser. lols. great. new ambition: poser of the year 2005. =X hahas. kiddin. tml maybe go roy de chalet. hmm. wonder wad will be going on there though. hahas. so boring now. i nid to learn new moves. argh! lols. ya. thats abt all. aly meii so long no contact her ler. wonder how she now. hope she doing fine. wherever you all are my meiis or didis. hope you all doing fine. miss ya all so much sia. hope to see you all soon. somehow.. i miss the days of sec school life. it was so fun. hais. budden time passes me by. if only i could turn back time. ...
p.s: everyone. if you all hav downloading agents. go d/l this video. type russel peters. download 1 of his videos. gaurantee u all laugh till no tml. lols! enjoy! =D send me all of ya regards dudes and babes. =D wan an!
rejected, dejected, sophiscated: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 1:40 AM
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
wad a guy wants..
i've been thinking this the past week and i really tink most guys wants this. lols.
`shuai
`nice body
`girls attention (esp chio bu)
`the gerl he love love him back
`the gerl to gib back the love shown by him
`the gerl to do the same sweet stuff back to him
`the gerl to be romantic too
`the gerl to be open
`this may sound funny bud i tink most guys wants this. =X the gerl to accept kisses and hugs.
`true love (believe it or not gerls. =D)
`the gerl to say i love you too or i miss you
ok la. abt all. i know i'm lame. bud.. i'm quite of all the points above. =X *evil laugh* haven been blogging this few days. not in da mood though. monday was cool. forgotten wad i did oso. lols. yest i stayed at home rot. cannot go out if not juz now i will be stoning at home. today went out play pool with auntie and yf. waaa. auntie so pro sia. hahas. rrly por lehs. mai siao siao horx. lols. den went to bugis for 2 games of drums b4 going to esplanade. =X bought a pullover! omg! finally! for 16 bucks can! so cheap sia. lols. went breaking. as usual. now break with the 'big boys' ler. waaa. they rrly damm pro sia. buay tahan them mans. i tot up of some diff downrocks and uprocks and practice there. hmm. oh ya! i can headstand for 1 min+ ler! yays! bud still cant spin. no one is teaching me. gotto find out myself sia. sadded. lols. nbm. i feel i improved alot ler. bhb i may be. bud i'm so proud of myself. lols. managed my handstand but still cant do '7'. awww. nid more practices. yupz. after breaking went to eat at mac. yawns. so tired mans. today is blur pig bday.. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLUR PIG! MUACKS! MISS YOU SO MUCH! LONG TIME NO SEE YOU LER LEHS! HAHA! HAPPY 14 BIRTHDAY! =D ok enuff. yeah. maybe tml or shld say later going to NUS to catch a dance performance with her. must see first. still yet to get my singpass thingy done. crap. ya. its abt all though. =D nites guys. oh ya. breaking's cool. really. not abt poser. come join if ya all wan. not dangerous as u all seems to see. really. give it a try! =D muacks all. wan an. =D lols.
breakers rule: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 12:42 AM
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Monday, February 21, 2005
Back. =D
ok crap. today tio kan by the b****. dammit. say if i usher i muz do usher. if not pls pack ur bags and go. zzzz. i say do do la. lols. in da end. go give fliers. wahahaha. act onli mans. went bugis. played drums. went esplanade, sleep.. gosh. i'm being paid to sleep and go arcade? lols. bud the last fliers time went with nor and sk. ok la. quite fun if there's people. hahas. nth much though. after work went to esplanade to break. woots. my headstand is longer den hafiz handstand. xD wahahhahaa! had some imporvement on seven though. was trying some downrock manuvers or wadeva u spell it. hmm. nth much la actually. some jap breakers came down and is lyk damm pro can. hahas. nth much.
ps: wei hwang.. still dun dare ask the number ah. hahas. jy. dun be so se can. xD bud u wan the ger no i can try take. wahahahas. xD name is call deviler. ok kidding. angeler. =X hahas. chill guys..
ooooooooooohhhhhhhh: Jt
darkside illusions 1:00 AM
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Sunday, February 20, 2005
Back. =D
ok! i'm back! anyone miss me? lols. hmm. ok la. haven been online since lyk 3 days ago. cos sis keep ba zhan the modem. only morning can use awhile onli. hais. yupz. now i'm back. erh... dis past 3 days.. did nth much lahs. went to do some breakdance. played some drums. erh. den juz now juz went to work. work was so freakily boring can. zzzzz.. luckily i change back myself. nv be an usher alone. i was lyk standing there doing nth. legs suan no one to tok to. kaos. den go do mascots. heng got frenz. so got tok. den when i do mascots. i feel lyk i've been paid to zip the costumes, sleep, sit, play balloon soccer (oh yeah thats it! =P), tok rubbish and erh. eat. hahas. nice rite? hmm. oh ya. and pump balloons. wahahaha! ok la. worked till 9 plus. wei hwang wan get a ger number bud shy. hahas. we sabo. budden she 19 ler. =X and ashley was lyk hais. y so 'old' lolx! eh. missed this year's chingay though. hahas. after work met up with mel at eng wah cinema. went to catch hide and seek. its lame can. budden hahas. some words will keep ring in your mind. phrases lyk. daddy will buy u a diamond ring. charlie.. oh charlie, come out come out wherever you are. =X hahahas. quite lame la. dun really understand the show in da end. we were straining our necks to watch the movie as we were sitting A-9 and A-10. *ouch* hahas. overall quite ok. so good of her to treat me. cos she owe wo de. =D budden still so bad when i'm lyk kidding and she's lyk "oh no! i shld de. =X" hahas. ok wadeva. time getting late and i've got work later. getting my pay too. smiles to the world. breakdance, here i come! =D
tired: Jt
darkside illusions 12:57 AM
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005
fated
juz kill me can. fuck this world. its getting freakily unbalanced. and now my family is picking on me all over again. fuck mans. before o levels they can say so nice. u study lyk mad now after your o levels u can play the whole day. play everyday oso no one care. and now they give me this fuck crap about u play and play. ma de. this is crap la. so wad my frenz are working now? big deal? i got my life. i currently on my way to stardom can. juz nid to pray well. dun really wan say wad izzit. budden if ya dunno den shut it can. everyone is picking on me. i'll be earning bucks for 1 performance can. hais. suan ler.
yeah u guys may say i am that type who blames everything for everything that goes wrong. yeah i am. bud i do blame myself too. its all my wrong doing. if only i did this or that. crap. i hate this. love, family, life, frenz, dreams, hope, future, all aint going rite now. its juz crap mans. ah. wadeva. and now they say i play too much. my sis saying i use so much of her comp. dammit. if i hav my own comp do i nid to bother abt urs? if ya complaining abt u nid doing your work and there's no time bud in fact ya juz chatting and surfing net, saying that if i take the modem the modem cannot connect again? dammit. saying abt wireless. all i try. all i do. all u do is complain why am i so lousy abt not to fix the stupid thingy and u taking all the usage. i'm pissed can. valentines was crap too. dunno wad is going on the whole day. grrr. and den frenz. frenz who said gonna go out party. in da end all pang sei. zzz. maybe the onli thing now that i'm satisfied with is my dream. yeah. drums and breakdance. i'm gonna master breaking. drums. i'm using my money. its gonna finish soon. so. hais. nbm. hope i can bahs. i doubt my parents will pay for me. so. wadeva. go preparation can ler. hais. others. forget it.
other parents are so supportive about their child take up music courses. yet mine, is my dream and their complaining. in wadeva i do. my hair, my style, my appearance, my dreams, my time, my freedom, my everything! i'm 16 going to 17 god dammit. i'm a adult comon. dun i alreadi noe wad i wan in life? appearance can u juz stop that crap abt refine and modest. i'm hu i am. i prefer extreme. my hair. i wan it spiked, style. not those side parting. juz gib me my freedom to do wad i wan can. and in return for all these, i got my allowance cut too. fuck god dammit. y is my life liddat. i'm screwed. hais. if onli i tio toto. i wont wan to depend them forever mans! grrr.
screwed: Jt
darkside illusions 12:19 PM
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
rip me apart
if there's sumthin that i can fufill now. that is to see laughter in every single one of ya face. yeah. tts all i can ask now. no matter wad i juz wan see everyone around me laugh lyk there's no tomorrow. =D oh sorry guys if i ever make u all down or sumthin. yupz.
in this world. nth is true cept the stupid thing i do. there's sumthin i regret and i really hope to mend. yet there is nth for me now to mend. it has gone. juz the gentle breeze sweeping my face. for once i tot. how life is great when ya alone. sitting on a grassland, face facing the wind with the sun abpve ya smiling. yeah. thats the life i'm looking for now bahs. i'll come back to write if i hav da chance. chillz guys. and hope you guys will smile ah. =)
just me and you. away from here. yet now. the vision is blur. my world is getting dark each and every moment. how come its getting darker. i see the light. i'm making it there. thats the exit. hais. maybe this is the only solution i have. bye guys. you all hav been great. =D
frenz till da end. smilez everyone! =)
nth to live for: Jt
darkside illusions 10:15 PM
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haix..
haix. how come life is so bad de.
i hate to hear it bud reality is really liddat.
how come i still feel jealous.
izzit becos of wad.
you'll never noe how it feels.
its lyk there's a knife cutting rite thru my heart.
i have never experience lyk that.
yet other guys do.
why?
i really cant stand it.
does this means you choose other ppl over wo le?
am i thinking too much?
yeah. you may be right.
i dun have a position to say anything
yet i'm suffering here
all these things we been thru
its lyk now nothing happened before.
i just cannot turn a blind eye to it. how come? its really hurting. i feel so so left out. so so sad. as if the whole world is giving up on me. how come? why is this happening.
do i really stand nothing at all now?
all the things we had together
i had no choice bud to say yes that time
bud i dun mean wad i say. i do not want that to happen. yet it did happen
why. i'm asking myself. wad wrong did i do?
haix. looks lyk its not a very happy valentine afterall.
all my wish, my hopes. how i wish that this aint happening.
and the days still counting on.
i want to spend the rest of my life with you.
will u noe? will u understand? i hope so.
yet reality check. you dunno how much i've been waiting. its really damm bad. haix.
if onli someone noes. haix.
i really love you so much that i dowan to let you go.
yet i've been let go.
can we be together again?
i really want. and i hope you do too.
someday. =((((((((((
suicide: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 2:14 AM
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Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Boring new year
every nite i tink of you. do u noe?
i slept early. budden thinking takes up 2 hours.
its so bad the feeling.
reality is harsh..
wad can i do some more?
sometimes i juz couldn't get you outta my head
i really miss the days we were together
when we would chew on mentos
joke about meiling
budden y does fate gotto part again?
i wan that feeling all over again.
can i?
it maybe easy for you
bud these past week
its been hell for me
i want u back
i need u
can i ever be with ya again?
oh. that's my valentine's wish maybe.
budden again
reality is harsh
guys, if u guys are having problems in life
there are 2 words for ya
be strong
y? becos i am never strong
i always wanted to see smiles in people's face all around me
budden i dunno how to make myself smile
baka me
if only.. regrettion. =(
yupz. happy new year guys. hope u all hav a fruitful year.
the battle is lost. bud i'll rage on. juz lyk the toy soldiers. hope that i can have those days back. would nayone make my wish come true? =X
WISHING: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:08 PM
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Happy New Year!
happy new year everyone! oh gosh. so fast 1 year ler.. still remember last year new year spend it with darling. hahax. went to esplanade there de. lolx. this yr lonely crap. think gotto spend it with breakers or alone. sad. lolx. v day oso quite a blur. lolx. alone as usual. nahx. today did nth. went to sch in the morning. wanted to wish tchers. budden onli managed to greet kok and kong. what the. lolx. den went pool-ing. lolx. went home. slept. den went ah ma hse for reunion dinner. nth much. went home after that... watch rat race. laugh till i pengz. ok wadeva. going breaking on the 3rd day of new year. any1 wanna come too? =D chillz guys.
\\o//: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 1:01 AM
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Sunday, February 06, 2005
time. is my weakness
yeah. time is indeed my weakness. juz lyk everyone else. i'm running out of time. y do ppl nid to rush for things? i dunno. time rrly flies. still remember the day i went to speak good english class in p1. that was lyk 10 yrs ago. hahax! bud time rrly flies. things past by as a blur. sometimes i dun even noe wad am i doing. is wad i'm doing worth it or not. bud for the sake of it i'm doing. this 10 yrs brings lotsa memories rrly. its lyk since p6. oh gosh. life rrly change when u grow older. tend to think more sensibly. peeps in sec sch thinks their mature. budden when reality hit them they will realise they hav more things to learn. juz lyk me. i always tot i was right during my schooling days. bud now when reality hit me. i juz gotta to face up to it. noeing that time cannot reverse. that wadeva u do now there is a results. you ying jiu you guo. thats wad they say.
bud not neccessary wadeva ur retribution now may be wad u did in the past. some things are meant for u. its juz lyk god made u to. its lyk u juz hav the passion to do. if ya not doing, u will feel weird. its so funnie how life works. somethings are not worth regretting even if u fail. yupz. so guys. especially aly meii ah. if u believe in it. go fo it. korr will support u. this type of things to u is so important that if u gib up, its worst than u fail. so go on man! tell him bahx! i've learned the hard way. its lyk i saw wad is it ler. i noe the feeling ler. i juz gotto hang on. cos i believe. i'm gonna push myself to the limit. if i'm going to give up now. i'll regret for the rest of my life. cos i believe i found the right person. i'll be there. no matter how long it will take. i believe i will change that thinking of two worlds. bud time is my weakness. good luck to all ya peeps. if a weakling lyk me can do it. comon guys. all of ya can do it. =D i hope so... love ya all dudes!
walking by: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:54 PM
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*broken bones*
ok. pain is all over me now. hahax. i'll name my injuries.
both shoulders
both part of chest
back
tail bone
thighs
calfs
forearm
neck
forehead
stomach
knees
ok about all. not much. =D haha. as usual went breaking today. tried headstand! *whistle* hahax. made my head pain. can balance bud nid helmet. hahax. head is freaking pain now manx. hmm. nth much to say. did handstand. fell down! omg! and i miss timed my fall. fell on my tail bone. ouch. its damm pain manx. gosh. stayed till 10+ arnd there ren shi some pro. tot us proper 6 steps, handstand. hahax. going on sat ler. where they gather. when u see them. omg. their too pro. u feel so inferior. hahax.
lastly for ppl hu thinks breakers are posers, are monkeys juz crap off la hor. if thats wad u tink. den ya so so wrong. breaking a dance to test the limits of the body. a dance to promote rythems (or how u spell it). if ya cant do. den *beep* shut it. oh wadeva. posing monkey huhs? u go try and u'll noe. xD
injured: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 2:25 AM
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Saturday, February 05, 2005
breaker jun? =X
lolx. more blue black and muscles ache on my body. oh gosh. i nid to try harder manx. learn how to pin body weights and strengthen my arms. hmm. my aps too! hahax. or izzit abs? ok wad-eva. hey F*ck. dare to write. dare to put name. if not juz lyk wad u ah, f*ck off. ok fine wadeva. call my stupid call me dumb. juz scold me. xie xie. and one thing too. you'll get urs soon. no fear. so smile while u can F*ck. =D
neways today went to esplanade late. bring my legs there. oh gosh. i''m so tired out today. did try lotsa things. my handstand is still quite ok. nid to learn how to balance more thats it. =D practiced uprock. seems fine. papa say not lively enuff. >.< den did a combination of six steps. oh gosh. its so hard sweeping the leg. not enuff energy manx. tried some freezes. did a hang freeze. back on the ground and push urself up to a adult freeze. tried doing windmill. the most tiring thing. so happy that i spun 1 round. >.< see the pro there go round and round and round. hahax. learned knee drop. ok la. quite pain. tried to do a head stand. ok. i sux at that. did popping and waves. today did alot. oh ya. tried hand spin, coin drop, turn table, leg swipes, cart wheels. ok i'm mad. =X juz lyk mama lyk to say me. jack of all trades master of none. yeps. anyone interested can contact wo. i can teach u how to do those moves i learned. and i'm finding ppl of 5 or 6 to practice and maybe perform back in mjr on tcher's day or wad. so do contact me if interested. everyone invited. even ppl frm mjr ah! =D if ya coming down. pls bring:
wrist bands/wrist support (if posible)
caps/ snow caps, helmet (best) [if possible]
sweater/wool clothing (if ya intereted in windmill, freezes or kick ups)
extra clothing to change
yupz. thats it. =D if possible, try to wear shoes with friction bud not too much. superstar shoes NOT recommended. airforce is cool. =) and if ya keen on learning. you are doing it at ur own risk. xD injurys i'm not taking respondsible. so learn how to fall. xD wo! i feel so pro bud actually if u see me there. oh gosh. i sux. rrly. still learning everything myself.
anyway tml or shld say today got soccer match. dun tink i be going le. sorry guys. my whole body aching. with me or not. no difference. sorry man. >.< neways gotto to catch some sleep. i'm spinning till head so pain. yupz! and today i feel so weird. hope some sparks do come. enjoy ya weekends dude. =D and goodluck to everyone hu is taking their common test. oh ya zr. sorry nv msg u happy bdae. bud. happy belated bdae here! =D
blues and blacks: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 2:43 AM
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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
how come liddat?
eh fuck it la. pls. y liddat? i really dunno. how come the truth cannot be told me earlier. at least now the state will be better. fuck it fuck it fuck it.
can someone stab me frm the back? or knock me down with a car? i dunno wad to feel. i juz feel i kana cheated all along. y y y? wad went wrong? wad didn't work out right? can anyone tell me wad to do? tok to me? tell me wad happened? or fuck it. can u juz tell me everything? wad is wrong? everytime i see u. i get more and more in love with u. hmm.
if i got 2 words to describe love. screw you.
can this be changed? i rrly hope i am juz dreaming. slap me awake and everything will be fine. we're still as one. budden i noe. its reality. come on. i juz gotto go on. i feel lyk this is departure. i hope down the road. we can be together once more.
you the best person i met in my life and you'll always be. never lost u in my heart. never gone. i'm still in love with you baby. i'll continue with breaking. continue with all i will be doing. for i still love you. for you've alreaid booked a permanent place in my heart. i love you..
-dreams never come true-
shattered dreams: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:58 PM
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Tuesday, February 01, 2005
yo yo!
oh man. am i good or wad? hahax. ok. i'm getting bhb. lolx. i did baby freeze and adult freeze today. lolx. baby can hang there for quite some time. budden adult freeze uh-huh. not enuff strength. lolx. anyone interested in breakdance? rrly tell wo lehx! wan jio u all go esplanade practice there. hahax. i'm saying real! hahax. neways.. practiced hand stand today. not tt good though.. hang for longest 3 secs. >.< den cant balance ler. lolx. tt is so lame. lolx. i nid train my arms ler. any good ideas how? >.<
fine. today went to bugis with xiang. bud before tt we met at suntec, went to adidas shop to get myself a snow cap. important for break dancers. if not head veri cham. hahax. budden i look weird with that. if onli i nv wear specs. hahax. nbm. bought it and walked to bugis. bought myself mos burger. den went arcade play arcade. *grr* my eyes hurt now. maybe i'll rest with drums for the time being. hahax. >.< played dedication and departure today. trained. almost passed pot-puppori d'mamarlade (or wadeva u spell it. =X) hahax. den heard she went shi ma lu with her mama go pray. =X hahax. and she convert back to non-vegetarian. lolx. tt is so haha! so funnie. ok fine. not funnie at all. >.< played till 7 liddat den go home. slacked. watch tv. oh gosh. pay is coming in tml. hundred plus bucks. hahax. nv work this month oso got money. =X weird horx? lolx. xD now using sis lappy. hahax. its good mans! hahax. tok to my mum abt trust and worry juz now. hmm. hope she change a lil. lolx.
i'm so into breaking. rrly hope to take breaking course. wonder how much. hahax. chillz. nitez guys! love ya! =D
*spinning*: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:48 PM
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