Tuesday, November 29, 2005
hints
i tink i'll blog today. got some things to get off me. wonder if still got ppl come reading into my blog. oh well its fine with me. maybe i'll juz rant it here anyway.
1st off the hook, i guides. was kinda a hectic week last week was. with 2 trainings and a workshop. hmm. i managed to scrape thru everything. the 1st workshop was kinda good. back to where i was though. mass dance, making new friends lyk FOC. oh great. i wished i could have been a FA though. cos i got no choice bud late for the workshop i can only get assist FA. T.T its ok. almost lost my voice though. it was fun lahs. wahahas
2nd. hais. this fren of mine. i tot i knew him. its been a long time friend of mine. i wonder wads going on. i really dunno. y do i feel so uneasy nowadays? these feelings i'm feeling. it aint the feeling i used to feel last time. long time ago. has time passed me by that you've left and i'm still at square 1? have i really ignored wad is going on? i dowan to end this bond. ya a great fren of mine. even before we met. we're destined to be great friends. i juz know it. you've changed. to somewhat close to i dunno u no more. where's the times we had fun together, crapped arnd and everything? i wished for the old you back. i lost the feeling and knowledge on how u feel. on your every actions. i want you back. if only i could have done something. regrets are always part of me. if only... my old friend....
last. yeah. love. was kinda confused lately again. oh well, nth much abt this too. i juz wanna noe where my heart really goes. somehow most of it is to you. yet i juz dun dare to say it out. i dowan to spoil everything. i have a bad experience once and i dowan it twice. its lyk 10% of chance we can be together yet i hang onto tt rope. y? i dunno y. someone tell me. or make it a miracle for me. i tink i've fallen for you. not once, not twice, bud i tink for long... =)) wonder when will u get my hints. T.T
darkside illusions 1:24 AM
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Sunday, November 20, 2005
ppl lyk this??
gosh.. i dinda noe there are still ppl lyk this still exist mans! it all happens on a friday. ok fine. wan noe details, go josh blog. i juz want to rant on those stupid crapass ppl. this guy. lols! he big shot. wan ask for fight. lols! when not noeing wad happened. lols. josh got into some trouble with them. useless bunch of powerpuff aguas. gosh. how lame can they go u see. argh. finding trouble. gosh. and this guy had to lift his head to tok to josh. tsk tsk. nic was arnd there. he got into troubles too. i was quite a distance. i wonder y i was there too. maybe cos the tcher called us to go away? its ok. at least i was in a standby position in case anything gone wrong. nic got a slight hit on the back. and guess wad he said after that? EX! they make luan my hair! =x gosh..
neways, these grp of powerpuff aguas is maid up of a shorty with a weird hairdo which i think he tinks is cool, a fatass hu does nth bud act important waling arnd with his bag in front of him and keep using his phone machiam calling ppl down which i tink its their max. he's juz showing. a tall guy, hu starts trouble with nic bud in de end he said see wad see? wan fight ah, bud he stand there not even wanting to walk over. dun even have the GUTS to find nic himself. 4 words for him so, all talk no action. next another average guy hu is slightly obessed hu is good in hokkien only. guess thats the best he can go. tsk tsk. and so this grp of aguas are for real! gosh! they look scary, budden the acer man came in. and nic, he is someone kdz la. lols! =x ok. i was being dumb standing there doing nth. dunno wad to do to solve, when nic was pressed against the wall, i wanted to run over and juz punch that fatass, lucky mr acerman was there. really stupid.
in poly still behave lyk secondary ah beng wannabees. wan be beng find real one. at least find some hu can run (unlike bubby the fatass), find someone hu have guts (the all talk no action), another one with more action (the avr guy who talks hokkien only) and lastly more integrity. f*ck them lahs. kiddos.
ok next sorry to my nic bro that i dragged u into trouble once again. >< all my freaking fault again. hais. me. is good for nothing seriously when it comes to books. hais. real sorry. next time same scenario, scold me and wake me up k? cos i've done enuff trouble for u and josh le. sorry bros. real sorry. honto ni gomenasai. T.T
darkside illusions 3:13 AM
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Tuesday, November 15, 2005
school
woots. argh, school work coming in. ok maybe not schoolwork. maybe cos i nv do them during the holidays. hahas! damm. should have done a little. oh wadeva. oh girls and guys of 2D. i dinda noe it was supposed to be a celebration. T.T blame it on my dumbness. argh. save me. hmm. its ok. next year. woots! cos my bday passed le mahs. so i tot it WAS really just a gathering. ><
boos. ok. now my bandit is level 33 ler. lols. leveling up real real slow. hahas. if i really play like the holidays, i should be abt level 37 by now. oh gosh. damm. i feel so funnie nowadays. somethings arnt juz goign right. i nid more time. i nid lyk 25 or 39 hrs a day. i wan to live longer. i wan to enjoy more before everything starts to shape up. argh. the past sucks. i have gone through a very tough since my secondary school days. its kinda ups and downs. hmm. maybe now that i have grown up. i should be thinking back and trying to improve on wad i can do. i really want to be the best. argh. someone save me bahs!
damm. now its so weird. i feel that ya my dl. budden how come my mind think of another thing? i dunno wad to think. feel so lost. how come i always wan to love someone i shouldnt love in the first place? an i really fated to stay lyk tt on till i really get older? hmmm.. someone tell me. i had enudd.
fine. ya in my head. u juz cant seem to get out of it. save me ah save me! tian ah tian ah! i nid you ah! come back to me! >< boo hoo! lols!
ok. now this session is joshua my f*ckiest bastard bro ask me write one. =x lols! he wants his name to be mentioned in my blog. i still wonder y. ok so here goes. everyone take notice. esp girls. guess thats wad he's thinking. =x
JOSHUA TAN
EMAIL: elitist88@hotmail.com
Status: Single
Maple ID: KaWaiiKuN
Living: Eunos (hang pig head bahs. =x)
ok. thats wad he wants. the f*ckiest bastard bro of mine. =x
ciao~~
darkside illusions 9:55 AM
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Friday, November 11, 2005
lala~~
love isnt all arnd. you got to find it frm the middle of everything. once i tot love could go my way. in da end. i got to fight for it. normally m/f would juz wan love to come without them fighting for it. somehow i tink otherwise. its ok i would say.
finding one destiny lover is easy. bud its juz how to take hold of the situation. most ppl will be shy and see their destiny lover juz walk away. and regret later on. i also do. till now i wonder why i still dun have the courage to ask the gerl i lyk for anything wadsoever. i have been walking for so long. yet everytime love fails me. i wont deny, i've once loved you so deep that i could do anything for you. till now i wont deny my feelings are completely lost. yet somehow i juz wish all could have gone fine in the first place. i wanted to love you more bud u choose to love me lesser. i dun get it. you could have easily be my no1. my so called destiny lover. everything abt you is simply perfect to me den yet now, all is nth bud a memory, an unfinished puzzle for me to solve, a place with i could do nth. somehow i wish to love you again. bud the msg was nv put across. somehow i wish that the person i could spend my bday with the most is you. yet everything is juz a shattered dream. i tot of the happy times we could have. yet i guess it was the shy-ness, and the failing ability to communicate to each other drifted use apart. bud seeing how life has gone now, you've oso settled down with life, all i can is wish u goodbye and all the best. inside of me, crumbled to the pieces...
pardon me... for somehow i cant control it anymore.. if only i grabbed the chance in the first place. if only i managed to win ur whole heart.. if only i managed to pull u back. if only the love could go on...
darkside illusions 12:17 AM
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Monday, November 07, 2005
bday passed
guess i'll blog smth. hmm. nth much though. my bday juz passed. and its juz lyk any other ordinary days. hais. wonder when will my bday be so exciting of new. gosh.. suan ler. yahs. sis bday coming. tml. sch reopen. taking jap. nth much more lers. everything is new. gosh.
i'm feeling so left out suddenly. maybe cos everyone's juz changing and i'm not. still that stupid me frm 5 years back. i wonder y. i wanna see my destiny lover again. i wanna fall in love. i wan a bday which can be spend very nice with the one i love and she love me. all that seems far. bud i'm waiting for tt day. hope next yr comes soon..
darkside illusions 8:56 PM
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Friday, November 04, 2005
arcade again? =x
maple under some inspection of smth. lols! nbm. blog a little..
hmm. life is juz per normal. nor's bday today. went cartel (lartel) eat. lols! nice! bud ex lahs. its ok mahs. hahas! anyway. same holidays routine. lols! i sians le lahs! hahas. whole holidays nv even start prsp. die le. wonder wad will happen sia. >< eekks!
hmm. my destiny lover. gosh. looks lyk tt will the first and last time i see her ler. its ok. smth lyk tt der. chance comes. u dun bao wo. its good bye. hais. seriously now my life really a bit bored. gai lai de bu lai. bu gai lai de jiu lai. >< eeekkks! i wan someone to be with. i wan to feel love again. lols! when will my destiny lover appear again? hmm. i wonder...
darkside illusions 12:36 AM
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Wednesday, November 02, 2005
destiny lover
i met my destiny lover today. gosh. her style her everything. size and everything. the way she talks and everything! oh gosh! hais. bud i let her slipped out of me. hais. y am i so shi bai. and i tot by noe this destiny lover can be my best prezzie ever. i wan see her again. lols! despo me. or maybe its juz a small crush. bud i'm thinking of her? gosh! someone save me. 3 more days. =))
darkside illusions 4:59 AM
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