Saturday, April 30, 2005
2D bbq
great. today was 2D^02 bbq. yeps. was quite excited abt it at first. hahas. in da morning went to tp to hand in some forms. gosh. so far. argh. their 2nd floor is lyk the ground floor can. the first floor is bus stop. weird de. so everywhere shld be 2nd floor. gosh. the stupid lift confused me. =x
after tt went ps drums awhile. yeah. about it lahs. lols. den make my way down to ah ger's hse. reached abt 4.15 lor. hahas. go there. tok awhile den go ah ger hse. once step in i was OMG! den go kitchen OMG! her room, OMG! her living room OMG! her toilet OMG! so big can. >.< so posh somemore. wonder y ppl have this fortune to live in sucha hse. how i wish mine was half of her's mans. pity i'm poor. >.< yeah. den 5 liddat start bbq. haha. ate hotdogs, sausages. woo! all are so nice. oh well. ppl started coming in. yeah. played cards. sat and talked with everyone abt the past. went to fitnes court do pull-ups, monkey bar, bar climbing. yeah. was fun chilling with da dudes. yeah. den the latest to come was melissa. she got better grades in tap. gosh. dun believe. ball change ball change. =x is lyk soccer. =x the ball inflated le. nid a change. =x
yeah. den went up to cherri hse again. OMG again. =x haha. den sat down and watched u got served and white chicks. all halfway de. abt 11.30 went home on 240. reached home 670. >.< yeah. wonder y the feeling is lyk change ler. dunno how to describe bud is lyk i doing some unnatural things to maiself. forcing it. wonder am i doing it right bud i juz gotta gib a shot rite? aint going live in the past no more. may anything come. i'll juz sit and watch my days go by. hahas. bud seriously. i seriously tink i cant hold out for long. argh. someone help me. i guess there's only 1 medicine for me. and i veri noe wad izzit. only that its hard to get. well. thats all guys. till next time. yeah. if loving you a crime, i wanna be convicted for life. =)) love ya. *muacks* haha.
wad shld do? =x
darkside illusions 2:09 AM
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Friday, April 29, 2005
drums!
well cool! today went to dhoby ghaut to play drums. supposed to meet at 11. went there no ppl. so played virtual striker 2 till they come. hahas. now i can 1 token finish whole game ler. xD so fun. hahas. stayed arnd dhoby ghaut lor. had something different for lunch today! gosh! so nice! i everyday way go eat ler. 3 bucks onli. haha. called noodle omelete. lols! so fulling sia. and is great! hahas. at ps b2 one of the food outlet. =D muz go try sia! awww. i'm feeling hungry now. >.< argh. anyway. ya juz tt today. =p
oh great someone help wo. y my tag so many unknown ppl one. siao de. >.< hahas. anyway. nites. tatahs! tml still muz make my way to tp to hand in some forms. hahas. xD yeah. nites dude. and oh melissa babe. good luck to u. u see. i nv add a lol ler. =x =p ciao~~
darkside illusions 1:10 AM
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Thursday, April 28, 2005
soccer!
oh great. yeah. today woke so early. ok its 10.30. =x and went to geylang serai play street soccer with da peeps. hahas. dinda eat lots so stomach super empty. played awhile den too bad to go on. sat at a corner see them play. hahas. yeah. nth much. played a little pool with them at inter after tt. hahas. so funnie. won all my matches bud cant seem to put off ting fong. izzit still that curse? =x wahahas. den went home bathe, den went out again to find fong, daryl and ben at far east. bought a veri cool shirt though. love it to bits. its been lyk months since i stepped into far east. was quite a noob there. hahas. yeah. my day was liddat. oh ya. went back to dhoby to play drums awhile b4 going home. hahas. sians sia..
aiyo.. life is super boring now. lols. tanka xue nee ah! lols. peii wo tok. hahas. yeah. we chatted alot la. lols. eh guys dun wu hui. she got her knnth de. xD we all is bo liao so tok alot. wahahas. yeah. life is kinda liddat. sometimes when u have the thing. u dun seems to treasure. when its gone, away frm u, u regret. wanting it back so much. bud its all juz an illusion.. it wont come back anymore. yeah.. toked to tt snow mud. =p was surprised she is tt type of gers hu tinks gers/boys hu dun kiss are weird. hahas! same as me. lols. i mean in a relationship of cos. haha. was quite shocked when she say she enjoy kissing. =x french kiss. most shock-ed was tt she said she always want to try transferring 'water'. =x oh gosh. i dun do tt. hahas. isnt tt abit too much? haha. yeah. den we went on chatting. and found another same thing. we want our stead to be lyk television liddat de. spend time go movies, shopping, sitting by the beach hugging or maybe kissing. O.O den staying up the night. catching the breeze sleeping in each other's hug. hahas. so nice rite this type of love. den go sports outing. lyk cycling together. playing pool. hahas. so fun. same huh. weii guys. not another dirty tot again. hahas. yeps. feel lyk i found a rrly nice fren. and she's going tp too! cool huH! haha. there's someone to talk rubbish too ler. lols. maybe she's juz open tts all. =p yep guys. tml is drumming! yays! tatahz! and sleep tite everyone. dun let the bad dreams haunt u. =D nites!
darkside illusions 10:03 AM
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
sianzzz
oh yeah cool. today stayed at home whole day use comp. check up on my max online thingy. still deciding on 2000 or 6500. both have its uses. lols! yays! will be getting my lappy this week or maybe next week! within this two weeks! cant wait mans! so many things to do. d/l ares, transferring of songs frm sis comp and main comp, d/l aqua dock, put in some games.. so much all these rrly make me so enthu! oh mans! visiting FUNAN this fri i guess or next mon. hahas. yays! guys! spread da msg. 2D^02 bbq at cherriann hse is confirmed. 10 bucks for food. extra money will be refunded. =D hope to see everyone! sweet! yays! so many things to look forward. juz later i'll be soccering with those peeps again. street soccer we rocks! i wan to see whether my skills got lost anot. long time no play street soccer ler..
still remember still schooling, we often go play. cc and me upfront, daryl and ben def den xiang gk. out team invincible. hu come all go out. only lost lyk 1 out of 20 liddat. so nice the feeling. rrly make me think back of the past. dudes and babes, how i miss those times. u all will always be my frens! love u guys. =P
ok where am i. oh ya. and new internet will be coming by school starts. sweet! aint fighting with sis for internet usuage again. >.< hahas. cool rite? cant wait to go shopping for shirts and jeans. oh mans! so many things to come! drums have reached an all time high! cool! cant wait for every drum lesson. pity this week dun hav cos of labour day. =(( wee~~ life is kinda nice now. bud there's still something lacking.. love. wonder when it'll come knocking again... T-T *sniff*
blurpig u seeing my blog rite? wanna say tanka and a big big big BIG hug to ya. muacks! love ya so so much! tanka for being there when i nid someone to tok to! u are my best blurpig and unusual family i have! monkey and blurpig - family forever. love ya lots! ^^
darkside illusions 1:26 AM
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
fine..
ok. dinda blog yesterday. was too lazy. zzz. yups anyway. yest woke up early. den use comp. use halfway check phone den saw a miss call frm nor. he wanted ask me go plaza. so i use comp more till bout' 1 den went do to dhg atrium. played a lil drums and guitar. aint improving mans. >.< lols!
and god dammit. how come every lil things i do in the family is wrong. fcuk! dammit! cancel internet line all say u do u do. ask ah boy do. my sister say u do la. y nid me. still shouted at me. den now wan go max online. den nid put cable. all now turn around and scold me. y the fcuk u cancel the singnet line. ppl will come down and make the cable. drill hole all these. so ex. y dinda u tell me earlier ah? huh? if more ex den rather we buy another new router. and fcuk it. my problem izzit? i told ya all long ago. hu listen? dammit! is always my fault! y? cos i'm da smallest in the family? fcuk the hell to u all lor. always treat me lyk tt. all dowan to do push to me. got things crop up my fault. everything mine. when my family members argue abt something, sure will pull me in. den scold me. lets say my mum and sis argue. will surely pull me in. den scold me. so instead become my mum and sis scold me. god dammit! den my mum will say. its always ur fault tt our family always quarrel.
fcuk again. damm! my fault again? sometimes i tink i dun even belong in this family. always see ppl family so happy. the smallest is the best. bud here. everything is my fcuking fault. wadeva i do. seriously. any family would lyk to adopt me? o.o argh. though they treat me good sometimes lyk buying laptop for me. buying this and that for me. budden there's always a price to pay for that. i hate it. i hate everything. i nid love. someone. hais.. i've been lacked of love for so long ler. someone love me. hais. =(( i wan love.. my family dun love me tt much. hais..
darkside illusions 12:42 PM
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Monday, April 25, 2005
wahahas!
yeps. haven been blogging ah. lols. yeah. yest went ps to drum. wooo. feeling is so nice. step dunno how many hundred base. lols! so fun. yeps. in da morning went cck. got my card. drummania card. yeps. got 162 skill points ler.. gotta get 400. saw my online meii at cck too. she live there so. lols! yeah. anyway... play play. went dg again. lols! den i and yf became lame.. he took the bottom mrt route to dg while i take the top. see hu faster. bud actually i dun care de la.. juz wan sleep onli. xD yeah. wad so ever. played till veri late last nite. den today go drums lesson! so fun! wahahas! damm nice can. dinda noe i can step those type of base. hahas. wonder y see taogay cannot do the 'pattern' bud see the arcade one can. =x lols! yeah yeah. wahahas. went to ah ma hse today so left arcade. came home. tv. helped papa with adobe installation. and soccer. miss mel.. newcastle rox! xD i still wan my long lost testimonial de. wahhaas! anyway. at halftime... read my hands! xD its newcastle 1 - 0 man utd. wahhas! chills! match starting! cya all! =D
darkside illusions 12:08 AM
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Saturday, April 23, 2005
dance fest 05'
oh great.. yesterday was dance fest 05'. lols! oh well. great to be there. grr. anyway... ya. yest afternoon went ps for some drums den arnd 4+ went to school find da dudes to go tpjc together. lols! waited. eh.. shld be leaving at 5.30. in da end dragged till 6+ den leave. lols! anyway.. went there. so fun! omg! so many dancers! gosh. so many hip hoppers sia! gosh. den saw foreign bodies! *my idols in sg* lols! they were so cool can. lols! hahas. bud pity my favourite crew is still expression. hahas! hope to meet them.. yeah. went with min, sher, cherri, wen, ding yuan, chelles meii, kher meng. lols. went there. mel lead us to the place. haha. enjoyed myself there all. haha. kks la. end here. dunno y the feeling is so..... warm again. =))
darkside illusions 9:28 AM
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Friday, April 22, 2005
home? >.<
oh great. spend another day sitting at home in front of da computer.. chatting. oh well. today da first day toking to miss suet. suet nee in full name. on msn. greeted me with erh. reflections on my horoscope? gosh.. she was lyk first thing. wads ya horoscope? i replied "scorpio". den here comes a long refrence. hahas. was nice of her though. yeah. most of it were true. chatted chatted till i buay tahan go buy lunch at 2.40. makan back. come back. tok to jared and her again. boring day. argh. and i forget to add. she mentioned to me her chinese name is snow mud. i was -.- xue nee. lols! SO FARNIE. =x wassup with the caps. hey hey. xD anyway. ya. juz chatted and played games till erh... 7. den eat dinner. den comp again. grrr.
hahas. yupz. pass 12 ler. soo. happy birthday sally gurl! ^^ pass 12 ler = going to melissa's sch dance fest later on. looking forward to the break dancers. xD oh well. tink i get smy hands on some drums at ps first before meeting the guys there. lols! weee. breakdance. how i miss u. =(( lols! k lahs. ending here. sweet dreams dude. hope tml is somehow different frm this few days. can't wait for sun's drums lesson. xD richard rocks! =x my tcher. wahahas.
darkside illusions 12:42 AM
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Thursday, April 21, 2005
akaisuzu
argh. so boring. mans. ok. today was quite ok. the 4 of us went out together again. as usual. ok. yf bought a new drums stick. yeah wadeva. k fine. aint not much in da mood for drums at first. till i saw i have the urge to pass akaisuzu. =x so played lor. hahas. today is one of the most better bass days. =x hahas. pass family restaurant bomber with bass finally! and nikaco with an A. ino blah blah A and K with a A oso! hahas. so happy with myself. oh well. yeah. life is so boring. dunno y sometimes at nite i will still tink. so angry with myself. so many things nv say. so many things nv do. and all byebye. hahas. well bud i told myself all in da past ler. so y bother. gib a zzzzzzzzzzz can liaos. xD and it does works i supposed. lols. now everyone is starting to get busy with their own life. frenz dun matter much ler. hais. yeah. hope down in this road, no matter how tough life is, all my frens wont forget me. this will be the greatest present in my life i can wish for. yeah. eyes getting heavy. so.. nites everyone. +D
darkside illusions 12:49 AM
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
sians..
hais.. boring ah! when one is sick one cannot go out and is stuck at home. just lyk me now. >.< argh. hate to be sick. cant enjoy so many things. haha.
ok. wonder wad can i do now. its been eerh quite some time since i had tok with her long ler. alamak. hahas. today jared juz reminded me. >.< dun remind me mahs. i wan see how long i can ton. xD =p wahahas. i can do it de. i believe. blur pig u oso can de rite? *winks* since he bo chup u den u bo chup him. love him in silence can le ma.. he really love you he WILL come tok to u de.. wad shy wad he dun do that.. love is liddat de. dun tink too much ler ok?
oh well. today i so sick. wendy meii still ask wo be dan jian pai. >.< alamak. cos she at bendemeer sec ma. so suay juz below my hse. =x hahas. den got 3 guys wooing her. all wan peii her home. >.< den she dowan so scared. ask wo peii her to bus stop be her dan jian pai. lols. sick ah. den the sun so hot. lyk got fever. lols. she ran away when all the 3 guys run diao. so i walk her to bus stop lor. lols. she ah. bwg de.. lols!
came back buay tahan go orh orh. lols! lyk got fever. so quickly take panadol and flu pill go orh. sis come back push me frm comp cos i slept on her comp chair. xD den go my room orh again. what the? lols! aiya. tml maybe go out ler. yays! sweet! yeah. tts abt all. wad shld i do? i still dunno. hope everything is fine bahs. yeah.. here's my wishlist to end this blog entry. =))
- new bag (no bag ler. all complain my back so old. the np open hse bag. xD)
- new wallet (so old and smelly ler. cos the sweat of my butt. grr. lols! leather wallet! wahaha!)
- more shirts (currently attracted to the one hanging at paradiz center tt hip hop shirt. awww)
- 2 jeans (both hip hop one. 1 is tattered and torn. another is thunder pants baggy. ^^)
- percussion set
- continue drum lessons to step 4
- electronic guitar
- money
- laptop
- new study table
- television
- everyone healthy
xD is that alot? =x
darkside illusions 9:27 PM
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Monday, April 18, 2005
drum lessons..
wohao! today drum lesson was damm great! damm nice. did mini tune 3 plus a half-bar and 1 bar fill. damm nice sia. enjoyed throughly. lols! pity today i was using the pads. haha. was enjoying myself so much cos i gave almost everything i got. lols! whack the hit hat, cymbal, (the only two tt wasn't padded) so hard. hahas. bud rrly can feel myself performing in front of many ppl and getting mad. hahas. budden mr.richard wasted 10 minutes. budden i shouldn't say wasted cos its really an eye opener. lols. he played differnet types of genre drum tunes for us and is way cool! haha! omg. the way he came up using the different parts. mans! damm power. oh gosh. he used his 2 hands and leg so well tt i was lyk WA!! omg! he did a samba tune and he was lyk drum rolling the snare with his left hand ONLY. gosh! god! one-handed drum roll. den his right hand move everywhere round the drums. his right leg open and close the hi hat making the usual noise and the base! oh gosh! it was damm nice. played samba, cha cha. so many different tunes for us. the most impressed is he used traditional grip to DRUM ROLL! one handed! and the bpm is lyk damm fast. oh gosh. lyk ah xiang say. i wan him to be my god-father and i take my sticks off him. =x lols!
oh well. den played arcade. sians. lols. ok la. nth more to my life. juz decisions and choices all the way. hope i dun step the wrong step. cos i noe if i step one wrong all will be gone ler. lols! k la. end here. blur pig dun be sad ler k? there's still mr.monkey here. lols! =D
darkside illusions 1:48 AM
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Sunday, April 17, 2005
haha. dunno y this few days keep nth to blog. now i confrencing with fren. lols! lame sia they all. those online ppl. really so different from our way of toking. hahas. neways, tml or shld say today is drum course again! nice. hahas. lols. aiya. dunno wad to do sia. lols. argh. someone pls brighten up my life by going out with me. >.< hahas.
darkside illusions 2:27 AM
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
hais?
argh. not blogging on alternate days. hahas. ok fine. today work up. use comp. yeah. den meet xiang at ps. nor and yf and sk came to join us. ok. back to wad i'm at. grrr. oh ok. my guitar skills now quite zai ler. lols! hahas. anyway. dunno got wad thing to say la. so. hais. yeah.. kinda confuse over some things. is lyk till now no one can gib me an answer lyk i will tink. yeah. tt is worth thinking over. oh well. am i thinking too much or y most of my frens got alot of problems now? hahas. ya anyway. dunno my ownself now ler. my life is lyk a zombie. wan do ad juz do. lyk nv tink of anything ler.. hais..
oh great. i dunno. so go or wad? damm. i'm so undecisive sia. not a boy. c'mon mans! i can do it. hope i can noe wad to do soon. hmm. tml seems lyk a boring day ler. if i dowan drums or wad. maybe go cycling bahs.. gotta be a boring day. hais.. anyone wan jio me out to play ma. hope someone will.. kks. end here le. bb all. nites.
darkside illusions 1:47 AM
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
looking forward
oh great. today got some things happened.. hmm. let me say something first.. in 15 minutes time is my meii wnaling bdae. so happy be-early bdae! love ya! ok. next. my day. grr... today woke up nth to do so use net till abt 2. hmm. watch the zhong yi da ge da in btw. was damm funnie. lols! den when i was chaning to my outside clothes papa turned on bowling. =.= what the. i tink i can bowl better den them sia. the bowling youth competition SEMI FINALS the score ended this way.. 175 - 154. wad the! i represent singapore can oso do better ah. >.< shoo shoo sia. one frm indo another frm australia. the australian guy is lyk noob. =x it seems he uses 2 hands to throw one. lols!
ok. den went plaza. walked arnd. 2 things happened here. ok fine. i was sitting down watching a pro drummer andrew drumming. den one fat ger. ok not i wan say. bud is really fat.. =x one of their frenz. back walk back walk.. slowly and slowly towards me.. she almost wanted to sit on the same chair with me. i was lyk stunned! this figure juz blocked my view and came crashing down. >.< lucky her fren call her. eh! careful! den she turn arnd saw poor little me almost got scared out my wits. imagine wad would happened if she sat down on poor skinny me? =x lols! she is lyk 200 pounds. =.= ah. well. next. i was topping up my tapz card. den there was this dyed hair gerl at the counter.. when i came. she purposely told another gerl at the counter. nah. this customer is urs. =x alamak. i was lyk huh? y her? lols! den the other ger was lyk shy shy took my card. den was lyk thank you and return my card. wad is going on? blurred. ok. time to go. the world getting so funnie on me. >.< ok. hahas.
darkside illusions 11:45 PM
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titless
ah. ok. so here i am blogging again. well lets say. today got my passport photo dine. argh. i look sucky in pictures. aint photogenic. >.< den went to city hall pass wei hwang my coat cos he nid a formal wear for SYF. wei hwang tell ya sumthin. yang fong went to see his choir SYF in shirt, jeans and slippers. >.< hahas. bet u'll be the limelight. wahahas! oh well. meant to go DG straight. budden instead went to marina to walk. waaaaa. marina rrly changed alot. lost my way there. keep seeing the sign arcade is at level 3. went up to level 3 onli got the food loft thingy. = food court. >.< walked and walked finally stumbled across the arcade. =.= it is in another building. what the monkey. hahas! oh well. stayed there for awhile daryl come find me.. went makan at LJS *again* and den go play pool ^^. hahas. won him 8 ball 5 - 2 and 9 ball 5 - 1. wahahas! race to 5. he was damm suay la. =x anyway. finally made my way to DG. went up to check zone x. saw kenneth there playing. gosh. he dropped his stick twice. first time was at erh. forget the song name liaos. the other time was at erh.. the least 100 second? gosh.. i was surprised he tried tt song. well. it is really damm hard. 2 hands and 1 leg doesn't seems enough. haha! oh well. after he dropped his stick and failed he looked at me. as though... ah. nbm. hahas. lyk he veri paiseh liddat. cos we look upon him as the best drummer there ler. lols! yaya. den went ps. got my hands on 2 games of drums before heading home for dinner. yeah. tts abt my day. lonely soul walking.. oh well. miss breakdance. miss everything. hu wan go b dance with me? >.< yeah. came home surf arnd friendster and ppl's blog. huimin blog had the neoprint. jared too. so well guess i gotto put tt neoprint out oso aint i? hahas. looking at it. is is erh.. lame. zzz. hahas.
i rrly wonder. y i always look the best giving tt feirce and dao look ppl will make my face till so cute lyk the one they put the ribbon. if not is the ppl wont choose the neo. den i gib those cute faces. they will make it lyk shit. lyk this.. >.<
get wad i mean? tanka to those gers art work. =x haha. ok nth else to say. hope the tap stop soon. *sneeze* nites all. tahs.
darkside illusions 1:13 AM
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
2nd blogging
ah well. since i nth to do. so come and blog again. for lyk its pnly 3 hrs since i last blog? lols. ok fine. hmm.. dunno wad to say sia. ah.. theres a gerl. u noe. she ask wo. wad if i tell u. i.. ok u guess. oh well. ask auntie juz now she say noooo. noooo. lols. ok kua zhang le yi dian.. lols! i copy this frm a comedy. lols. eh babe. u watch le ma? >.< lols! ya and den she say i not ready all these. i was thinking. not ready.. hmm. yeah. indeed. i dun even noe if i'm ready or wad bahs... is lyk oh gosh.. i dunno wad to do. dowan history to repeat itself again. lyk last time. argh. *punching myself* i juz dunno y. i cant put my heart for another gal lehs. izzit cos of you? o.o *goldfish eyes* argh. i dunno la.. mans. i feel so bad and confuse. oh where oh where can my baby be. the lord has took her away frm me.. man. i really wonder if i should wait till past her uni or sumthin u noe. its lyk i'm thinking of my future with her ler? oh gosh. crazzziie me. lols! i'm dumb sometimes in my head. lots ppl told me. when i grow old and i will look back and say tt was so stupid of me! god dammit. hahas. i was laughing cos at the back of my mind i was thinking seriously. will i be thinking tt? cos till i old i will still be loving her. aint it? hmm. life is so much of a mystery..
ahh.. late in da night i always think. this question in my head since the day u choose to leave wo. did u leave me cos of ur studies or u leave me cos there's no love? if its cos of studies den i want to wait. wait till everything is done before hopin u can accept wo once again to continue the fairytale of mine. bud if its cos of love den i shoulda constrain ur life ler.. argh.. headache again. zzzz. oh well.. i dun really noe sia.. life is so cruel. really wish we were still together. mugging in the airport together during exams periods. hanging out after drums or when we're free. so many things left undone. hahas. well. getting early. meeting wh later to pass him a coat. den maybe arcade for me the whole day. rest well dude. dun fall sick lyk me. chills all. miss the times..
darkside illusions 12:49 AM
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Monday, April 11, 2005
home~~
oh ok. had some mood to blog now so blog lor. dots. ahhh. yest nv blog.. was too lazy to type. =x disappointing season for the magpies. oh god hu cares. well. the toopid tap of mine keep flowing. >.< hope u guys noe wad. lols! cant stand it. woke up at 11 today. watched some tv before using the comp at 3. dinda noe wad to do. so surf arnd friendster and found it.. erh. kinda interesting. *ahem* oh well. went to sleep at 4 while watching tv again. now sis RESTING so use her comp awhile. oh mans. tink wont be using today. she'll be giving the excuses i nid the comp for my studies! my exams! ya. exams can watch tv when and wherever she lyks huh? i juz close one eyes. so wad arguing with her? mama and papa sure on her side. hais. life is liddat. the smallest in the family is the most lugi one. argh. hate my life. >.<
ahhh.. dunno wad to do sia. stayed at home. thinking somethings. i've psychoing myself forget abt it le la. once patch. twice will not de. wads the use. oh well. i've been trying so hard this few days. efforts seems to pay off to my drums and guitaring in the arcade. slowly bahs i guess. dunno myself either. in my life nths rrly tt hard actually. well this problem is the hardest i met. >.< grrr.. kana scolded juz now for something again. guess wad? cos i submitting my poly enrolment thing on the deadline date. what the monkey?!? lyk i'm doing something wrong. scolded for half an hour by my mama. saying wad i not responsible la. say i cannot do things last minute. my sis got into this arguement and i was showered with more love than ever. x.x scold = love isnt it? ah.. wad am i thinkin.. i dunno y. i'm still missing you so much. bud when i see you.. i dunno wad else can i say. wonder if ya still hav feelings for me or not. bud. in da end i noe the one hu lose out............. is still me. forget it.
A Year Ago Today - Delta Goodrem
Another year older
A little bit stronger
A little bit wiser than
A year ago today
Looking over my shoulder
I was so much younger then
Oh I can't believe what happened
A year ago today
And I just can't forget about it
It wouldn't mean a thing
You went away
A year ago today
Another year gone by
Oh the tears have run dry
Life seemed so unkind
A year ago today
And I just can't understand it
I don't think I ever will
You went away
A year ago today
And how many times have I questioned myself
What more could I do
And how many times have I fooled myself
Over you oh
You've gotta pick yourself up,
Take another look
And dust yourself off cause life's too good,
I'll say it to myself and I'll say it again
Love will never end
And though we're so far apart
You're forever in my heart
Another year older
A little bit stronger
On this anniversary
You're watching over me
You went away
A year ago today
You went away
A year ago today
darkside illusions 7:27 PM
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Saturday, April 09, 2005
sick..
ya. today went for the poly check up with ren jie in da morning.. waited so long before we finished our medical report, our x rays. oh mans. met evil ger and auntie amanda there too. hmm. so qiao de. actually meeting jared and guys at mac at 1.30 bud due to the super delay, me and rj went back to school on our own. wasnt feeling well. head was giddy. dunno y. oh well. today was the muster parade. nth unusual. RC was erh.. so funnie. the squad. juz dunno how to say. hmm. after muster parade. went to back of technical block see the seniors now teach footdrill. so slack sia. bud wadeva. meant to go to the parade square to see the sec 3s. well. met mr chew on the way. so we chatted for abt 10 minutes. saying abt results. the school. hahas. quite chatty. mr chew is a nice guy. so lotsa of my old frenz. oh great. onli blur pig call wo. and shu hui and tuition. jia yin saw me and demanded presents. >.< feeling quite giddy. stayed in school till 6+ den went bugis find the other ex-2D peeps. was quite sick so dinda tok much. eh. she was there. budden i dunno wad to say. is lyk dunno wad more to say. met them in food court. den dey decided to take neo. what the monkey. oh well. joined in. gave some posers and went out. felt quite sad. dunno y. so went off to the CD shop on my own. well i took one of the neos. i dinda pay for the 10 bucks or 9 bucks? so dinda say anything. the others took 3 or wad i tink. dunno. went mos later. sat down. they chatted. i dunno wad to do so listen mp3 chatting in sometimes. before going off, returned 30 bucks to her. now nv owe her anything ler. ah.. ya. tts abt all. they went off. was thinking later sure at same bus stop with her and erh. i tink jared bahs. was feeling quite awkard so went arcade play a game of guitar before heading home. they were gone by den.
ah. maybe today is the last day i'll ever see her again for this time. she'll be busy with her JC life. knowing new guy. wont be surprised if she go steady. ah. wad am i toking. feel so useles.. i dunno. well. at least the last memory of us is in the grp neo we took. for one moment i tink. yeah. maybe its juz a blessing in disguise. u were never mine. hais. bud how i wish i can make u mine. atgh. wad am i toking again. grr.. *kok my head* i dunno y. i really wanna say i HATE you. really. landing my in this state. people come kill me. i really HATE it. budden this is the ironic part. how come i can onli say in words. bud my actions still show i love u a lot? how come when always i see you. the hatred is gone. how i wish there was onli 2 of us juz now. i'm still floating in the past. thinking that one day we can really have the happy ending. we walking down the streets. hais. all is gone now. feeling sour, bitter, salty bud not sweet. oh gurl. tell me. none of my frenz have the antidode to the poison. well. i guess the remedy is you afterall. would wanna patch with u someday. hais. bud juz lyk wad u said.. if we really are meant. later on with life we'll meet again. budden i really noe the answer to this unchangable fate. we wont meet again ler. our lifes wont cross. i tink for now we wont see each other again ler. today may juz be the last time. yeah. dunno if ya seeing this or not.. bud.. though we dun even sms now or tok now. i hope one day u can really achieve wad u desire. if there's any problems, come to me. i may not be anything to you. bf, bestest frenz or anything. bud if one day u really wanna come back, i'm always here. untouchable, unmovable waiting unconditionally. this is the promise i made and will never break till the day u choose to i do. love ya. may life be great for you. hais.. juz feel lyk blacking out and leave everything behind...
Akino Lee - Departure
Oh... Oh...
(The) night has gone away, morning comes
Dosen't seem that long feel it
Hardly had one word to say
Morning dawns there come a parting day
You are my own intimate friend
Cause you said "Don't lay down your life"
Without a single word I stood there
(I) made up my mind to go through with dream
One day, you said that you went on a journey
You said you made a success
And you made your way in the world oh yeah
You work as hard as ever don't you
Life is very short and also shine
Don't turn round your face
Don't worry you can work it out
I know you wont to come home
Don't give up now
I pray you take a chance tonight
Believe and going your way
There's a great proverb someone said
Time is never die never stop
Well, we have the right to go there
It is all up to you yes, up to you
Oh... Oh...
Every tomorrow brings its bread
Yes, so much here is hard to lose
You made up to get your dream
Oh never hesitate
I wish you might succeed! For you
You are the only my friend
Distant journey
Sometime you're feeling so sad
Dreaming journey
Maybe you lose your heart
Dear my friend
Stick to it! hold fast to the end
Forever we are good good friend, I miss you
I promise you to aid your dream
I don't know what to say
But I... here I am
You are the best friend in my life
Forever you stay in my heart in my soul
I feel like this is departure
Oh... Oh...
darkside illusions 1:14 AM
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Thursday, April 07, 2005
boring..
oh well. miss feli peli beli ask me to blog so here i am. actually rrly got nth to blog. life now is montone to me. one day sms received = 1. by mama. hais. so boring. dunno do wad. woke up at 11.30 today? or was it 12? >.< actually 10+. budden cant drag myself out. was feeling quite moody. in the past. when there's still her. i every morning wake up will quickly check my hp de. and most of the times there would be her msg.. ah well. now there's none. lyk there's nth to pull me up frm bed. grrr. ah.. taking x rays for poly soon. cant believe time pass so fast. abt 5 months since o levels passed. actually i quite proud of myself. this 5 months though nv earn much money. bud i took up lotsa new skills. =D way to go myself. ^^ ah fri is muster parade. finally i going back school. with rj, hui min and jared. yeah. wanna go back see how our cca ler. lols. ah cool.
guitaring and drumming. yeah. life is liddat. oh gosh. how come so hard to get S one. always get A. so xia suay. >.< lols. tmr's thursday. wonder wad excitment for me tmr. oh. been weeks since we went our way. life is still quite fine for me. still dunno wad i rrly wan though. feeling all kinda stuff. ARGH. can anyone sponsor me money? let me drum the whole day? wanna kick the stupid words 'chi qing' outta my mind.. grr. kks. tts abt all. my life. my boredom. wonder wad else can i do. oh yeah. TP here i come. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
darkside illusions 2:06 AM
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
hais..
yupz. yest dinda hav the slightest mood to blog at all. dunno y this few days have been quite moody. argh. i somehow feel i lyk ger liddat lehs. mood swings de. =x good tt time veri good. not good den veri quiet dowan do anything about everything. argh. any ppl not happy screw me. mans. i oso dunno wad got into me this few days. hmm. hav been guitaring lyk siao. ya/ i receive tp de enrolment package ler. gotta see a doctor soon. hmm. life is quite. no a little. no veri veri boring for me. nth for me to go abt. to aim about. sometimes i feel i lyk living for nth liddat. hmm. oh well. maybe tts me when i down. hearing lotsa songs now. den relating them to my life now. dunno y all the songs i listen all fit in so well. di yi ci, departure, funky sonic world.. and so many more. pot-pourri. argh. wad am i doin. i oso dunno. wad to do now i oso dunno. somehow i feel my future is gone. ruined. lyk the path in front of me is so errie. mans. wad shld i do. hope someone hu truely noes wad i'm thinking without saying can help me. maybe someone up above. i hope. for now. back to my usual routine. *grudges* oh mans. how i wish i was still in the past. with you to joke around with. hahas. too bad i nv treasure those moments well. too bad for me. too bad for myself. jt, u sux. =D i'm laughing insanely when i writing all these. wonder wad's wrong. >.<
darkside illusions 9:56 PM
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Friday, April 01, 2005
weeee~~
all well since i can do nth now so now drowning myself with things ler lor. alamak. went ps with nor and yf in da morning. oh well. began addidcted to erh......... GUITAR?? lols. oh mans. i dinda noe i had so much talent in guitar. lols. played alot of guitar today. so fun! can jump and swing here and there. electronic guitar rocks! lols. played lots songs today on da guitar sia. so nice. hahas. pity ps dun have. onli pl mrt there den have. awww. met up with sk at 3.30. went bugis the jacks place makan. ah. student meal jiu shi student meal. so cheap. junrong came to join us later on in his jc uni. *grudges* lols. so cheap sia! $6.50 = soup + main dish + coke/sprite + dessert. xD so hua suan. eat to full full. hahas. den went bugis guitar all the way and 1 or 2 drums onli. lols. den went ljs eat dinner. den hui jia ler. lols. tts my day. without her anyway. awwww... hope one day can patch bahs. chills~ miss my breakdance still. =(
darkside illusions 2:42 AM
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