Wednesday, March 31, 2004
hAix... LooKs lYk yOu dUn gIb a DaMm..
arh~! now half-time of singapore vs japan... well, japan is now leading by 1 - 0.. today was damm a long and tiring day... i'm sorry i broke my promise... i slept a little while during EL remedial... haix... bud the poh pin the lesson reali boring... haix.. well, today is geog first... tok abt the singapore housing thing... haix... boring bud listen still.. then is maths... did percentage change.. a little bad in this topic... bud after some after school practices, i did quite well... yea... and got back the loci test... arh~! again, luck ain't with me... 1 more mark to go next grade oso dun gib me.. haix.. if onli i ain't tt careless to sub the wrong number... sub da midpt instead of the points lorx... wasted... yaya... my fault i was careless..
Well, recess was next.. today nv c her much... recess onli c her toking to ger they all... haix.. well, then 2 periods chinese veri relaxing... did ting xie then du bao.. neways, then was 2 eng and assembly... april 20 to may 20 is da month of taurus... tt means tt her bdae is near! tink popular her sure alot present de... not lyk me... hahax.. not even a present... maybe one... ren jie's in-extinguishable candles... hahax.. tt was sec 2.. neways, today assembly abt EL... then she was on stage... well, can't take my eyes off bud i tried dun look... make me more haix... dun say le... well, the students won the teachers and i my eng improved a little... *lame*... well, then was EL rememdial... so boring... ger, next week prepare to sleep bahx... ya... then was physics remedial... learned how to do practical for o levels... learned alot new things.. after tt wait for her... ming song join me in studyin together... budden i tink tt how suay a person be oso can't be as suay as me... haix..
Wait till 5.40 lyk tt she came and went... before i knew it, i tot she was around... then in da end, she took bus go liaox.. didn't even manage to c her face lorx... how suay can you get... well, this shows one thing i suppposed... none in her heart... haix... gotta face up to reality in a matter of time... haix... good luck to anyone out there... earn more kharma... dun be lyk me... do everything oso so suay... haix... nth to say le... tts jux my life is tt hard.. bu-bye-de...
WasHed tO shOre: FetOrAy a.k.a ALvin
darkside illusions 8:29 PM
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Tuesday, March 30, 2004
100% will be seen if possible...
*argh* jux managed to use da comp... went for tuition jux now... yupx.. today was quite a lolx day... though not tt happy lahx... wahaha! today woke up at 6.25 lai chuang sia... then go school... remembered to bring moi hp today... keke... went school tink they alreadi reach sch le cos i saw her when i walk thru da gate... hmmm... well, as usual go to canteen say • there? lolx... tink • pei her go school... aiya... dun mind de larx... walk supa slow today... dunno y i walk at the tiny passage there i walk da side... then behind no one cut me... i was walking so damm slow lorx.... wonder y no one walk past me... all wanna walk tt slow too? weird... yeahx... then morning 1½ period of d&t is used up cos of a talk by a monk frm australia... well, its ok to me... cos i still dun have my material... yayax... say me toopid... lolx... wasted time again... well, recess was in a flash... saw her walking jux right pass me lehx! walao... i wanted to say hi le... then she lyk nv c me lyk tt... turn head then walk straight pass me... make me look so ps! aww... wad can i do sia... laox... make the surrpunding of me so cold so freezing... i finally dare le bud she turn da chance... manx... so bad lor the whole day yet did not show out... yayax... bud i started a new song called ding ding dong... and the dance is damm fun lehx... can jump jump de... lolx...well, da gers keep sing the lula song... manx.. whole day lorx... keke...
osh~! then a period of chinese followed by 2 chem, 2 maths.. yays! i finally understand chemistry! all tanka to seapig for slapping me awake to listen to siew seng claz... keke... regret did not start listening from rate of change... cos its seems hard and important... well, 2 periods maths was damm manx.. make my eyes so blur the rotation... bud i believe thru more practice i can do it ne! gambatte kudasai junting! oosh~! then after school is chi and geog remedial... sucha long day manx... drag till 4.30 lyk tt... actually is wan go home with her, ah ger and kai wen de... budden she went off first.... so in da end i went home with ger and kai wen... lolx... pinch kai wen face so fun... bud got a few book shot to da ass and head in return... =x well, ger i will remember the pinch you gave me... now the skin there lor... pain sia... haha...
oh ya... u stilll owe me $$... keke... lolx... nbm lahx... got $$ then return... i still pok... keke... nid save le... tink sat will spend abt quite alot lehx... stupid f driver the 125...nv c us wave the bus jux drive past the bus-stop... i c you one more time sure humptam you de! hmph! so go home that time ask papa fetch me and ming song home... well tts abt my day.. after tt go tuition... on bus keep falling asleep then the head keep hit a women sitting beside me... *oops* ... lolx! neways, hope tml will be beta than today... hope she dun treat me so cold le... feel damm shattered inside lor... haix... if someone noes... yeah... ending here le... bubu-bye-de.. =[Þ]
ShAtteRed DreAms aNd hEaRt: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:46 PM
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Monday, March 29, 2004
[add] well, jux get to noe one ger frm kent ridge sec if i not wrong... hahax... she reali damm noob in comp sia... ask her go internet tools oso dunno... hahax... anyway, dunno y she ask mi call her tell her how... so we tok tok tok... tok abt an hr sia... dun even noe how we managed to tok so long de... bud she quite kawaii lahx... keke... dun tink yy kkx? i onli lyk one ger... keke... anyway, she told me where to get the thing i wan! yays! after 1 hr of surfing da net to find it... early noe i ask her le... hahax... then after making her comp, we tok tok lor... she lyk so bu yao la tt time de... lolx... those how to say... lyk veri cute cute de... hahax.. she tok lyk veri pri sch... manx... am i advertising for her? mad me... dun tink yy hor everyone! hahax... well, nth more this nite... jux did some maths and learn for da chinese test... keke... k larx dun say le... byebye... [add ended]
yOu'rE geTtInG fUrthEr
ok... today was quite a nth day as usual... jux try to tink positive yeah? first 2 periods was a maths... ded small change/approximate change... yea... it was quite easy... all of the steps is dead de... yep... the song voyage keeps going thru my mind... hope to find the eng translation soon... neways, today refrain myself frm slping and i even listen to seapig lesson! i'm a changed guy... i wanna study hard and i can do it... okx... next was physics went to da lab.. though my paper dunno fly where when i pass up to kok that time, i still try listen to wad he say... manx... the journey is tough bud i jux gotta hang on... then was recess... quite plainful as i ate a bowl of laksa... forget got mee goreng manx... haix... yaya... then chinese was great! finally one time no nid worry got do nian xi anot... cos today is the spelling thingy... keke... i supposed to see her during recess for my zhao ju... bud i nv go, she oso forget... *grins* neways, up next was eng and geog which i listen thorughout though sometimes during eng i was distracted... i still managed to finish the exercise... yea... lunch break was damm funnie... wei hwang can't finish his rice he go use his straw stuck the rice in and then blow it out... lookx lyk constipation... lolx! its damm cute the way tube of rice was squeezed out... d&t waz till 4pm... too bad i did not bring my hp today... so gotta use ashley hp to sms ah ger ask her wait 4 me... well, she replied to my phone hich i obviously c it when i reached home... did everything wrongly manx my d&t... haix... mux redo again... damm... bad hare day...
well, went home with jared and yea infront was her... i forget ask her the thing sia... forgetful me... hahax.. in da end reach the bus-stop she take 67 go... most prob is change at eunos? i dunno lehx... nv go ask... well, miss da chance to say bye bye to her... tink she oso bo chap me le... *sobz* life is getting tougher each day... well, as ger say, i can't always push da blame... yea... its my fault i can't pluck out tt toopid courage of mine... actually is can de lahx... jux feel tt if i and let me tink wad to use.... i and • is rite beside her... i tok, • tok, she will be damm stuck in da middle... will feel pressurize... tts y i always nv say anything... bud by doing this, i tink me and her is getting further and further away from each other le... i reali dunno wad to do! i care abt how she feels bud by doing this, it makes me further away... maybe jux one day she jux forgets who i am... haix... if not another prospective is tt she is avoiding me again... diao... i dunno... jux wild guesses... feel damm hurt sia... jing4 tui4 liang3 nan2... lyk today... i was jux beside you yet nth came out of us... its lyk though we are invisible... bud when • is beside you, you two is jux lyk toking on... i see le oso tink back of myself... i reali is tt invisible to you mahx? y will lyk tt de? can't we even jux say hi or bye? jux simple words oso cannot... i tink i am too hopeless le... maybe its jux not the right choice...
i ain't giving my best... bud if ya reali dun hav a heart for me, at least jux spit it into my face... well, i will jux have to accept it one day... jux one day... can anyone tell me wad to do? haix.. i reali dun wish to have history repeating... jux hope one day we can sit down jux you and me tok thru all... tt will be my happiest wish... well, now i jux can hope she doesn't avoid me... wad can i do? onli you can lead me out... hope ya reply soon... =& wonder wad will happen this yr esp after our o's... will you ever be with me? or will i never ever c you again? well, frm the most accurate point of view frm someone, i ain't gotta have you... tink i tok to long abt this le... i jux feel damm sad... hope someone can cheer me up lyk i do... or maybe jux ur in-turn reply can... haix... chillz on junting... its time for you to study... this type of thing gone is gone... i reali hate da feeling of so near yet so far... damm torturing... and even so near yet you see other ppl having laughters with her, you can't do anything cos you are lyk you ain't there... haix... hope someone can help me... bye guys... chi||z...
Sad and feeling drifted: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 5:33 PM
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
wAd a QuiEt DaY...
manx... so quiet today... cept maybe go tuition... hav been bottling up today at home alone... keep everything to myself.. the god has gone crazy... y putting me thru all these? maybe its jux some obstacles in life... i believe after crossing these obstacles, i will find the day-light i always been hoping for... today went to tuition... then went home... did maths and eng straight for 3 hrs... sounds unbelievable? well, i wanna prove to all that dun believe i can do it! i'm experiencing home alone today.. actually is i choose not to go to my ah ma hse... always waste time there c ppl play mahjong.. =x neways ya... met a new fliend online... well, chat a lil bit then nv liaox... actually quite long lahx... hahax... dunno her much yet... hmm... neway, today is jux shoooo sianx and shoooo sucky... tink i jux woken up frm a long long slp... a 3mth slp... now, i'm refresh, i'm gonna study hard hard for my o's! and oso do hard hard... keke... =K well, today hear nth from her...
oh ya... dammit! last nite i was smsing siaoeh... then i ignore his msg without replying... then i accidentally forward to her later when i decided to do sumthing abt it! sorry leh siaoeh... diao... *grinx* toopid me... i bet she tinks is i purposely send to her de... so this will den affect us again... manx... heaven is reali torturing me... wad mux i do sia... can anyone direct me? =x ooh~~ jux hope she reply bahx... if not i will be damm paiseh de leix... hahax... newayx, today i finally found the ayumi song i finding! its called voyage! haix... pity theres no tt song to put it on moi webby... its damm nice... well, tml is a new week in school... jux hope she can pass mi sumthing... oh ya... remind me to ask her sumthing i wanna ask her on fri... quite important... neways i wanna chill out now... wonder whether if my reward for o level will eva come.. haha... god bless me! diao... ciao~!
Chi|Led Out, PiSsEd OFf: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 8:16 PM
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Saturday, March 27, 2004
PTI suX... So dO eh?
manx... wad a toopid day it had been manx... early in the morning 6am (singing, not actually six... is 7.30...) i wok up... damm, i so tired... yest i look thru year book c ppl... hahax... ok... went fer RC today... well, most ppl were early... 8.29 reach school... 1st time so zun... lolx! ok lahx... RC veri gao siao lor... one second sir one sec mdm... then face a ger (tink is wendy?) becum shuting mdm... then wrong wrong... seng kwang sir... hahax... i hear le jux laugh till pengz lor... hahax... then was the toopid PTi... lucky seapig nv say anything much cept i dunno wad... walao... still suggest change seat.... f de lor... anyway, i was da first to be called up... -.-" kukumalu bird bird de... haix... anyways, after tt tio scold again lahx... always de... i told them our claz is band with e1, e2 and e3... bud tt ah choo go say we is e2, e3 e4... then e1 on their own... wth... then tio scolded for distorting facts... dammit manx... its obviously i'm rite lor... kukumalu burd bird de... *hmph* well, sad thing is today she nv come to PTI... Her parents not free... haix... nbm...
well, i tink tt seapig say things oso quite true lahx... i mux start working hard le... since i got no motivation frm her, i jux gotta find my own de... bud where ne... maybe frm the power within myself... well, i tink if seapig dun too gl, dun too boliao, wuliao, i will do well... hope in da end i can yi ju liang de.. can not onli get good results fer o levels bud oso the thingy i waiting fer... lolx... =x well, seems impossible? i'll prove it all of you all! hahax! singapore poly! here i come!!!! *seems familiar these words* hahax... mux try balance time... time for study, play, comp, tv, build-up and cos to jio lahx... wahahaha... the god mux be crazy... -.-} pray fer me... lolx! well, now alot ppl noe i ish alvin le... good good... at least last time my papa gib mi this name dun hav go down de drain... hahax... well, it seems good mahx... both got christian name beta... hahax... lame... =x oso! i wanna box huiming sia... go say i and the sec 1 so pei! box you lahx... hahax... even so i dun care.. hahax... cos i got one liao ok huiming! hahax... o.O ok lahx... moi sis using soon le... wan go watch soccer too.. CIAO guys~!
Changed and Charged: FetOrAy
darkside illusions 11:49 PM
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Friday, March 26, 2004
Without you, there's rain...
well, today was quite ok for me... hmm.. dunno how i pass my day... this morning took a maths test... well, my polygons questions wrong le... manx... got one i get correct though... hahax... kk... after tt was chemistry... now then found the laughter in chemistry... its so fun bud veri tough to study... mux revise everytime so that exams you alreadi master the basics... welll, these are my sis experience... anyways, physics explain the dunno wad... columbus thingy... keke... well, recess ate laksa and nth else... feel so betrayed to moi stomach... hee... after tt was 2 period of geog... manx... i finally fell asleep... the lesson today was damm boring... oh my... then was say nice is 2 periods english, 1 period cme... in da end... yeah... 3 periods eng... lolx... did situational writing draft 1.. hmm... finished doing.. keke.. then nid do draft 2... haix... suxxy... school ended lyk tt... so fast 1 week.. gotta wait for another 3 days b4 i can c her... haix... nbm...
after shool there was a RC meeting... i went frm 3 to 4 lyk tt... mans... b4 tt, i defeated wei ming in badminton! wahahaha! lame lahx... durning the meeting, she told mi she reached home liaox... meant to ask her sumthing de... budden no nid liaox... lolx... went back to badminton later... saw 2 meis there... hahax... and tt jasmine... hahax... nv c her for lyk 1 week le... whole week nv c her lehs... keke... anyway, she got her *ahem* le... hahahahahx... i so lame manx... jux tink i gotta try harder! gambatte kudasai! -.-" well, nth more to write... maybe finding ppl to go out to study on sun... hope *ahem* can... lolx! lame dreaming... anyway, tml is PTI and tt is death day to most ppl... good luck to all... of all ppl, i tio the seapig... haix... tink tml is the death day for me... so if guys, if you all nv c mi on mon, send mi ur regards... i maybe on da newspaper... lolx! bye bye and nite nite guys!
Waitiful anD loVe 1: FetOrAy
darkside illusions 8:37 PM
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Thursday, March 25, 2004
Parting oF cremator
well, i can't believe i am made the fool again... well, abt to post my blog, internet is not responding... well, according to experts, when a person life is hit to a high time low, wad you nid is some lighter and some happy memories... well, i got it today... keke... yesp, ran 2.4 during PE with a empty stomach and a freaking block nose... well, when i was running it seems my organs can't breathe cos of da block nose... bud i continue to run... bud the god mux be cray... i choing at the wrong ending point... haix... made mi frm second go to 4th... manx... ain't i tt stupid... well, jux got the NAFAL (or izzit heck care the spelling) tt i nid to pull 5 pull-up to get a C... manx... i can hardly cope with two... i need to train more le.. haix... anyway, first time i did do the questions in chemistry... well, i jux gotta get good results now... cos i dowan disappoint everyone... well, i am veri proud of moiself lehx... i started to read the mr choo so called "most difficult part" of da straits time.. well, indeed it is hard... the words they you is manx... horrifying... lolx... i wanna pass my eng well, i wanna prove to ppl i won't get affected by outside things... i wanna do well! da da da da! yea.. after school was combined extra chemistry lesson in the ava room.. well, i listened to the lesson again! hahax... then after the lesson i went to study with ger they all... actually i nv study de... budden ah ger came to me while i wondering wad to do say she got a question dunno how to do... so i started racking my brains... mans... i did here and there... still can't find sia... then i suddenly tink... i'm soooooo stupid! in the end, the answer ios onli 2 steps away... hahax... yea... tml is up with a maths test... i later go read up on polygons can le... and maybe some other hard things... hope i can do well bahx... all i can say is this yr, the eng and maths dept is shoooo totally mad! hahax... gib so many things de... 1 term gone my maths is lyk one whole big stack lorx... manx.. in da end went home at abt 5+... so lame... hahax... well, i managed to overcome liaox... eee ha! yesh yesh... all i nid is chance to tok tok... keke... ok... ending here... moi fren wan mi play gb... sux man mi... lolx.. kk... byebye guys... take care nite nite... *praying for da beta tml*... keke...
Happy and Contented: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 9:54 PM
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Wednesday, March 24, 2004
StAnDinG uP! Lo.OkInG FaR!
well, today was crap doh~ lolx... did rate of change... hahax... in differiation, this part sux alot... hahax.. anyways, after much notice, i found a pattern! and i devise my own way! now it seems so easy... lolx... yeps.. today wasn't a rainy day... *looking forward to PE tml* lolx... ok... walk to school with siaoeh and neal or izzit neil? *cham* lolx... aiya... dowanna tok much... today nv even fell asleep! hahax! well, ah ger, tink you motivated mi to study! hahax... though the motivation i looking for is not this lahx... haha... kkx... even yong chai leng lesson i awake! hahax... then eng, chi all nv sleep... i wanna get good grades to do myself, my family, my friends and of cos *ahem* proud! *and i'm proud to be a champion! for at least i noe i'm free...* oops... got carried away... keke... yahx... i'm gonna study hard... ger, you will be pitting against me! whahaha! ok... well, today meant to study after school with ger de... say wan mi teach her rate of change... bud guess wad? ya, she went off! wth!
haha... oh ya... was late for remedial today... well, they say 10 minutes late 1hr lrc lahx... bud the sea pig (hai choo) say after assembly which was 2.15 take a 15 minutes break then go remedial... well, according to seapig theory, we were early lahx... bud to mdm wee thoery, we were late... wth? bud anyway, i and pf squirmed out of trouble... hahax... aiya... in da end i studied myself... did lotsa maths questions... alot oso forget... lyk matrics, functions! manx... i mux refresh myself... hahax... k... add da lyrics of moi webby song... its so cute and nice! hahax... its called happy together... enjoy my song! muacks and byex ppl!
Happy Together ~ Turtles
Imagine me and you, I do
I think about you day and night
It's only right
To think about the girl you love
And hold her tight
So happy together
If I should call you up
Invest a dime
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together
{Refrain}
I can't see me loving nobody but you
For all my life
When you're with me
Baby the skies will be blue
For all my life
Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
{Refrain}
Me and you
And you and me
No matter how they toss the dice
It had to be
The only one for me is you
And you for me
So happy together
So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together...
Confused abt love: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 9:39 PM
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004
yays or haix? beats me...
oopsy daisy... today was such a toopid eh no, bloody day... well finally i remembered to bring my material... lolx! thanx to my faithful personal log book... wahaha... well, had a hard time doing the trigger today.. wad make mi more frustrating was i have to do the handle part og my artefact all over again!!! arx~! y? cos tt ah choo tt time ask mi drill hole 5mm now he say too big... wtf sia.... haix... no choice... yupz... 4 periods i was there doing... 3 periods take up by sawing the metal, filing it and marking out things... haix... then last period found out tt the handle got problem... well, tt ah choo hor, though muz admit quite pro in his subject, bud hor he veri bo chap de lorx... lolx... *worrying abt pti onli* lolx... not onli actually... wahahaha... well, ate chicken chop today and the chilli lyk got prob lyk tt! ao sour! i hate sour things cept sour sweets.. lolx... the next half of da day was crap... though learned transformation and reflection... well, madam heng lucky dun regonise mi cos i was tt last boy... lolx! well, she came in and tok abt our claz blinds and the things we put up... later putting up a stupid yet damm hilarious conversation our claz had with mdm heng... lolx! damm funnie! i was trying to hide my laugh all da way lorx...
well, end of school where was i? eh... ya... chinese remedial... keke... today actually wei ming wanna punch pool table de... bud i decided not to go... 1) tuiton... 2) no clothes... 3) dun wanna get addicted... lolx... yeps... so in da end siaoeh and ming song pei me... *yawnx* waited for eh dunno how long lahx... cos we all keep bull sh*tting there mahx... lolx... then finally go... wtf? it was raining... always lyk tt de lorx... mi, ah ger, siaoeh, ming song, her together tt time sure will rain de... lyk we together will put a spell lyk tt... lolx... so toopid manx mi today... look elsewhere next moment, GONE! laox... and tt siaoeh oso nv call mi de lor... lolx... so bad de... yahx... then tok cock with ming song till my bus come... didn't want my day to be lyk tt de... tok abt hair on da bus, then we went home and met at 5.45 to eat mixed cruisine... i ate fish and chips, he ate grilled chicken... it was SUPA delicious lorx... ya... darling ah, he reali say you lyk tt lorx... hahax... reali lahx... well, great mind tink alike... dun kan bian urself... lolx! o.O kks... ending here.. still got the conversation to write... wahahaha... teaching the rate of change for ah ger tml... nxt time take tuition fees... lolx! no la... jokin! =p when you learn wad i learn today in tuition about integration, u gotta vomit... keep forgetting de... lolx! kk.. add the conversation... can't remember much bud tts about all i can remember... have a good laugh! =) p.s: i can't remember the conversation sequence well...
he converstation... da da da da!
mdm heng: good afternoon 4G! i came into your claz becos some of your classmates are outside when and i see the teacher is not in the classroom... i meant to go to 4E but i decided to come here first... when i walk past the corridoor, i see some pupils running back to class... at least they feel guilty... but there is one boy took his time to walk back... veri cool... well, i hope that boy hu noes hu he is knows what is right from wrong... blah blah blah... (then tok abt our claz cleaniness...) 4G, look at your blinds... when it drops no one take the respondsibilty to go and dispose of it properly... leave it there just like tt... ti la pa lyk tt.. i was considering to pay for part of the repair... bud after coming to your claz, i'm gonna tell mr lai to pay the full cost! -.-" blah blah blah...
(then tok abt the calz decoration...)having a claz notice board decoration is good.. bud putting up graffiti is not good! i've been to so many america schools (bragging) and none of them put this type of things... (it was because one of it have a F U C K word on it) they respect their clazroom... they may have 10 ear holes and nose rings bud they respect their class room... they take pride... not by putting up F U C K on their notice board... yo can hav notes, simple nice decoration... i dun mind... lyk other claz i walk past, they have nice words... you singaporeans lyk to follow the west... follow blindly... you think putting up F U C K is cool? it is nice? gers, i'm surprised you did not protest... prefects... i've been to classes in america, one put "i am a bitch cos you make me one" this words on the... (*ahem* at this point of time, zhen ying was giggling... *imagine*) ger, you tink its funnie?!? do you lyk being F U C K? you will die ok ger? *the whole of the back ppl were laughing* you tink F U C K is fun? do you lyk to be tried on? Do you noe wad does F U C K means? if you all dunno, i can tell you! do you lyk F U C K ger, now looking at li ping side?gers, man are always selfish, first they ask for holding hands, then they ask for kiss... then they ask for sex! -.-" blah blah blah... i noe this claz got ppl got boyfriend and gerfriend... i can c... blah blah blah...
got sum more funnie things lahx... jux tt i can't remember... the main part is when she look at *ahem* zhen ying and said... lolx... ok lahx... ending here le... byebye...
Moodless bUd brOkeN: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
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Here Without You ~ 3 Doors Down
A hundred days have made me older
since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
and I don't think I can look at this the same.
And all the miles that seperate
disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams.
And tonight, it's only you and me.
The miles just keep rollin'
as the people leave their way to say hello.
I've heard this life is overrated
but I hope that it gets better as we go.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams.
And tonight girl, it's only you and me.
And everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
And when the last one falls, and when it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, it's only you and me
darkside illusions 5:25 PM
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Monday, March 22, 2004
[add] haix.. i'm damm outta life... i'm kana outshine... haix... y is this happening? y can't i do anything? can't you jux make it clear? even if you have to spit right down on my face? i'm damm disappointed with myself now... wad shld i do to ease the pain... so near yet so far is much worse than so far yet so far... noeing tt the person is jux right in front of you yet you can't do anything... it's damm terrible.. haix... wad shld i do ppl! help mi... save mi! haix... feeling terrible currently... shld i or shld i not? this question is in me... and i dunnno wad to do anymore... everyday looking at the scene, its always happy.. bud look to my own spot, its lyk hit by a bolt of static lightning... i'm always feeling da same thing... y muz i feel this way? i'm willing to wait... its jux tt i'm jux now certain abt this... i dowana get hurt again at the end... patience i passed.... now is left the fate and destiny... if onli you tell mi in da face tt sure y not we remain close! after o's let's move on? hahax... that will be impossible... i jux wanna feeli secure... wanna feel that it's all worth... then time to mi, its jux a willing thing i'll do... hurt too much b4... haix... anyone to help? i'm damm scared-ed of da future... haix... bye bye then... [add ended]
I cAn'T bLamE anYonE cEpT mYsElF
arh~! y is god torturing mi!!! i write one full whole blog entry and all was cancelled!! dammit! am i sucha bad boy my whole life tt i have to be treated lyk tt? frenx oso say mi! dammit! i am damm fed-up with my life... if onli there's someone i can tok to for hours and hours... tt'll be great... anyways, saw them while alighting from da 21 in da morning... while, as i am heeding ger's advice i was ren-ing not to go bother abt her... am i doing this rite? well, i can't blame anyone cept mi... correct? hope so... yahx... learned the rate of change in school today... haix... k larx.. spent da whole freaking day doing nth... jux thinking and thinking and thinking... am i doing da right thing? i dunno... well, after school oso i can't blame anyone cept myself... its all abt mi and mi... nth more... well, life is harsh to mi and i accept it le... its damm frustrationg... if onli she noes... i tink i few hours can't online cos gotta chiong maths... anyway, i reali dunno wad to do next le... Arh~ wad am i going to do? can i have some advice frm above? arh~!!!! i'm getting mad... its gonna be all over soon... good luck to you bahx... well, i got nth to say... ending here... byebye le everyone... nite nite...
Yesterday ~ Beatles
Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it look as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday
Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
oh, yesterday came suddenly
Why she had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
oh, I believe in yesterday
Why she had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday
Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
oh, I believe in yesterday, Mm
Heartbroke and washed: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 6:57 PM
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
Freaking bloody day....
fucking day lahx today! damm fucking... wad's wrong with my world? y everything oso no good? love, fliends, and even my everyday life! fucked up! got up early and was kped to go tuition... damm one lor... nbm.. keep nagging.. arh~! well, whole day was da same lorx... went tuition and learned intergrating trigo functions... after tt went to eat laksa... quite delicious bud the coconut milk is quite sour... i hate sour things... manx... y isn't anything to my way... dammit manx... ok lahx... went home straight after tt.. tot can study and do my things at home... bud tio kp go my grandma hse... then on da way keep being kp abt everything.. my room, my blah blah... even my body oso can kp... shit de lor... go my grandma hse hor, wasted precious 4 hours there... i slept there while everyone was lyk happily playing mahjong... went home abt 7+... keep kp all da way lahx... now watching the last episode of the we tou dong gong... so crappy lor... so luan... so unbelievable... lolx...
well... sumthing unbelievable to say too... i dunno y my imoto become my dear... lolx... bud still prefer imoto... lolx... jux a name.. dunno where to classify her... lolx... k larx... i dunno wad to say le... its jax a lame life i'm going thru now... well, gotta lotsa advice on da next step i can do to *ahem*... well, kang hong one is so nice.... later put it here... hahax... well, i'm gotta go study liaox... last day do work... sai lor mi... nbm... hope for da beta.. my love and normal life sux! well, lucky i still have lotsa great frenx sticking with mi still... thanx all! muack! i love all of ya! byebye!
The quote:
"It takes patience... you cannot hope for instant results... relationships have to be built up over a long period of time... if you can stand the test of time, it really is love... if you can't... den let it pass...
PaIn anD hUrT: FetOrAy
darkside illusions 7:54 PM
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Saturday, March 20, 2004
dunno wad to say day...
ok... wad a day today... woke up at 8.30 today.. dun feel lyk going meeting... bud its compulsory... so make my tiring way to school... went for da meeting hor, tok cock there lorx... bud still got say wad was meant to say larx... kuku de lor... didn't expect ren jie to say those... hahax... it was omg... quite chek ark when i heard lehx... lolx... started at abt 10 the meeting and ended at abt 12.45.... then siaoeh meet mi at da entrance... we all deciding whether go escape or go watch movie or pool... finally we decide on watching movie... the eye 2... lolx... bud first we went hawker to eat... so long no eat my delicious western delight... haha... ate chicken cutlet together with my favourite soya bean... lolx... after eating we go to a shop go borrow newspaper c the movie listing... lolx... siaoeh lyk pratically noe everyone lor... hahax... then we went back to school after tt to meet up with ren jie.. he got prefect meeting mahx... finally after tt miss tan toking we went to meet zhen hong at da mrt there... well, today my wallet is packed with notes... not 50 not 10... is 2 dollars... 18 notes i have inside... hahax...
we decide to go to marina go watch... well, the movie was alright... the frightening parts were shit if the sound effect is not good... i tink the onli scary part was when the picture dropped and when 2 person dropped down from dunno where at the bus-stop... hahax... the story was quite lame... could have got myself with more laughter with haunted mansion... keke... well, catch the 2.10 show so ended abt 4... hahax... along the way and during da show, zhen hong and siaoeh tok tok make everywhere so cold lorx... lolx... gao siao la they all... hahax... well, ren jie went home first while we went to suntec go find king jun and his *ahem*... lolx... he damm tio shocked when c us lor... hahax... well, of cos we not so bhb be ostram (lightbulb) de lorx... we went seperate ways bud wanna gen zhong him de... lolx... had quite a good day larx... well, i and siaoeh go the fortune of wealth and walk round the fountain... hahax... lyk gay... cos its meant to walk round 3 times and make wish de... will come true de lorx... bud since new yr to now my wish lyk nv lei... haha... so i go so-called "renew" my wish.... hahax... aiya.. nth much later le... wei qiang treat us fish McDipper... then i and zhen hong make our way home... stupid de... mux change bus... went to wrong bus-stop... hahax... come back nth le... nv sms or try to think too much today... cos i noe hor, jux hope after moi o levels, won't disappoint mi bahx... dun wanna get hurt again... whahahhaha... k larx.. i ending here le... jus one thing to add... ah ger ar, if ya seeing this hor, dun angry le lahx... they are still ur frenx rite? muz be da fang... forgive and forget ya? diao... dun say too much... wait you say i dunno anything... haha... oh man... i tink my words getting too manx... kk... bye bye guys... nite...
Cheeers and Loved: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 8:06 PM
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Friday, March 19, 2004
[add] well, i forget to add the highlight of da day... hahax... today we paying the pool bill mahx... then reali no money... cos play till reali ex lor... then we orh orh money out... lolx... in da end, siaoeh forced to take da money frm his hp out... lolx... his $10 put there veri long le... is for emergency... cos i remember him saying if one day *ahem* ask him help her buy thing at least got raining money... hahahx... so funnie... keke... reali damm despo lorx... well, after he orh out tt $10, we went home... at the alight bus-stop then noe tt king jun bring $30 lor! wth manx.. still say he onli bring $3.... sai lahx... lolx... tts abt all... bye... [add ended]
Though its negative, its good enuff...
well, today was a eh... dunno how to describe day... hahax... early in da morning went to school for geog and chi remedial... today she nv come school... tt toopid richard still say i saw her! i reali saw her! tink he saw aunite betty grand daughter which we reali saw... lolx... toopid suay day again manx... today eat veri little for breakfast so in claz aiming for janet's chocolate chips... can't resist mahx... then ashley took the box and took 2 of it... well, i haven even taqke a hand on it, jux turning around tt ah yong tot i was eating... suay manx... her big bobby eyes jux stared at mi lorx... dunno y so suay this holiday jux lyk the other holiday manx... well, they tml going escape... bo jio de... lolx... gotta have a boring ending to my holiday... haix... yup... chinese got hmwk le... mux remember to do sia... hahax... well, gotta reply frm her today... though is not a good one, bud at least she remembered and i appreciate... THANK YOU! jux glad you did not say no immediately lorx... lolx! yup yup... though no good i was still in a happy mood.... laughed and tok with moi frenx all da way to the market... hahax... oh ya... my hand hurts alot still sia... banded it against the whiteboard today... bud bang wrong side lyk fractured it... pain pain...
siao lor... today reali too sianx le... wanna go out no one to pei... so i go katong there... (again...) siao de lorx... play until so ex... die la... i dowan play le larx... hahax... well, actually wan eat katon laksa with ming song... budden no money... lolx... so go back then meet with king jun at 8 go mac eat... hahax... toady though play till so eh... hahax... bud still ennjoy.... I WIN QUAN SONG in a race to 3!!! lolx... he damm pek chek.... lolx! laugh all the time there... reali enjoyed myself... bud onli if... nbm... dun wanna dampan my mood... lolx... sorry ah cc.. forget jio you again... hahax... nxt time will remember de... lolx... well, tts abt my dae... there's a re-match of sec 2D and sec 2G on mon... hope *toot* is there bahx... wild dream... bud i doubt ppl will be playing... alot 2D dowan play... haha... sianx sia... i oso no feeling play... its so lame lor... play till so hard in da end still tio ppl say... suan le... he pro he kick himself lor... my prob mehx... siao de lor... k larx.. not writing le... bye bye guys... enjoy ur weekends... holi ending le... so happi... keke... nite nite.... hugs to all... today nv build-up sia... die le larx... ciao!
Moodless: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 9:21 PM
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Thursday, March 18, 2004
It'S bEeN 1 WeEk sInCe We Met... =(
ArH!~ i reali can't stand it manx! its nearly a whole week le... y von't you jux reply... haix... i'm waiting everyday... manx... haix... yeah... today waas quite a crappy day... supposed to meet pf at 9am at mi hse here... bud he slept and slept till i have to go school myself... haix... tml will be quite a long day... hope she can reply saying yesh bahx... haix... today supposed to have d&t... bud i forget all about it! naturally i forget to bring my materials... haix... all this things that are happening to me is distracting me from many things.... hope jux her reply can motivate mi bahx... reali nid a motivation now... haix... yahx... played basketball in da morning... b4 remedial... lost my skills... haix... then went to take the chi test and a little bit of compo thingy... then go katong... actually i ask ming song help mi do sumthing de... bud all i get in return is nothing except for laughters... haix... y de!!!! reali wanna bao wo every chance... or izzit lyk last time again avoiding? i reali dunno... help lehs...
well, played quite lousy there... bud i still win king jun! that's sumthin to cheer abt bahx... tink i dun go there le... wanna concentrate well... all i nid is you you noe? y lyk tt de... yupx.. its jux so freaking lorx... after chinese remedial, b4 go pool played soccer... haix... though i scored a few, it doesn't seems to cheer mi up lehx... i am soooo damm mao dun sia i tink... oh ya... yesterday at nite, i, ger and wanling mei mei got conference thru msn... then ah ger and i act act fighting over something entertain mei, she tot it was real! lolx... tt reali took all this sad things off my mind awhile.. haix... i damm fed up... haix... so wish they called mi together with them... i would reali spring a surprise manx.. always envy every ppl around mi... well, i goota put in more effort... bud it doesn't seems to let mi noe lehx... die de... if onli "you" can help mi... a lot ppl keep wondering y "you" nv help... hahax... haix... dunno wad to say le larx... jux feel so lonely and so bad.... arh~! hope you'll reply mi by today bahx... sorry *censored*... byebye...
Lonely and *priang*: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 8:02 PM
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Oh GoSh!
manx... dun worry... i'll still be blogging at nite... anyways, i heard a superb dream today morning! wo! reali nice... first time i have the time to finish my this super nice dream! alwyas beautiful dreams will be cut off somehow de... no fun... haha... though i noe it seems impossible lahs... dreams nv come true... tts wad my fliend told mi b4... haix.. anyway horx, the dream went this way... it was a veri bad bad day... it was raining, then mi and my flriends of cos with *ahem* were together lahx... then when we were waiting for bus, miracley (damm! my eng sux!), the bus-stop is left with kwek, mi, *ahem* and quan song... lolx... damm funnie lor.. well, it goes this way tt *ahem* ask mi help her chou kuan help her make a spectacles? lolx... its so damm funnie yet sweet... hahax... i hope i did not drool... then we tok tok tok lahx... first time worx... ok lahx... it went very nice lor... hahax... hope everyday dream is lyk tt... keke.. well, dreams nv come true... i jux hope for da beta bahx... ok... gotta go prepare meet peng fei le... bye bye... and ger ah, u ask mi fight, u ask mi go ask go ask hor, tink can say bye bye le larx... my hp is so quiet... guess u noe wad i toking... lolx... ok lahx.. dun say le... wait i late pf gotta kpkb mi again... lolx... bye bye guys!
Sweet Dreams Bud HopEleSs: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 8:34 AM
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Wednesday, March 17, 2004
[add] well, life is so bad... not again manx... oh gosh... isn't afte realli tt cruel to mi? lolx... well, hope tt chance do come my way... *singing* "there can be miracles! when you believe!" lolx... i'm mad, i'm torn, i'm siao... haix... suan le... yup... i told ger tt fate and effort come together... well, if there's no fate, there's no way ur effort will be known rite? lolx... jux hope mrs luck come knocking... well, i goot stand still and strong... mux have trust towards the person you lyk rite? well, i believe in fate and i believe in da person! *singing again* "i wll stand tall! i will stand strong! i will survive!" wahaha... love her lots... keke... byebye! 9.43pm [add ended]
recovered physically bud not mentally...
dun feel lyk blogging today so jux write for da fun of it... nth happen today... jux use comp today.. hoping to have a chat bud in da end, nth! lolx... so farnie... well, gan pin mei ar? thanx for trying to cheer mi up worx! bud dun do tt again kkx? not fair to her and mi... hahax.... thanx anyway... slacking arnd when i hav a test tml... haix... luckily i got study abit... keke... ok larx... too bored to write... so dun write le... bye bye...
Cheerful and bubbling: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 6:21 PM
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Tuesday, March 16, 2004
[add] manx... well, i was thinking... y do ppl hav all da fate they wan except mi? they often meet bud i jux dun hav da fate... manx.. i think i'm damm a fate believer... nbm... i'm jux feeling veri cham lahx... though sick ok le... if onli tts me... i'll jux treasure every moment of it... von't you jux can tell mi? i dun noe... its jux seems tt fate is bringing us apart though destiny is da same... nbm... i still hoping one day we can have a beautiful fate... haix... jux so suay, so bad and so eh... vinegar? i dunno... y y y y y??? maybe he is meant more for you bahx... cheers up dude... well i'm feeling ok now.. jux left the mentally sickness... 4.14pm [add ended]
Sick is bad! Bud a reply is good!
ok... i'm damm freaking sick today.. dun wan to wake up at 8.15 de... too giddy... bud anyways, woke up... wanna faint sia.. i immediately went for water as i was reali damm short of it... well, supposed to meet peng fei at mac to eat at 9... budden we in da end decide to meet at 9.30... wanna do sumthing... anyway, we reali met at 9.30 which was a damm miracle... tok crap there... then left at 10 lyk tt go for school... well, obviously we were late... so many things happen today sia... haix... yup... around 12 go for da first time play pool! lolx... i nv go a place play pool cept csc... tot i will be a total noob there sia... bud i'm so wrong... haha... i dunno if there was a tyco god there or wad... i managed to win lotsa match... hahax... so suxxy sia... lolx... well, i left early at 4 to chiong home... in da end make it lahx... budden hor, knew is tml... wth? hahax... nbm lahx... so giddy all da way home... reach home bathe, use comp awhile then fall asleep... i feel so much lyk a pig nowadays... hahax... managed to wake up at 6 to eat then supposed to go for tuiton... bud so sick i slept all the way to 9.30 b4 waking up... yawnx.. hahax... so glad tml no nid go school... i miss school... bud not in da sick state... yawnx...
reali damm tired still.. can feel da heat in mi... keke... well, b4 i slep tat 6.30 today, she sms mi! lolx... its been 114hrs since i heard frm her! lolx... well, i replied bud no reply came back so went to sleep... though is no take care msg or wad, haha... a sms is good enuff for mi... keke... now jux wanna get my sickness go away soon... haix... ming song actually wan mi pei him go run... budden i cannot go out... wahaha... seems lyk i can't build-up for ages cept doing pull-up at home... nbm... i believe during thiis stage, i can de! lolx... gambatte kudasai! got back my optimitic feeling.. haha... anyways, i decided not ro resign le! woaho! yup yup... i feel so positive now... keke.. ok lahx... ending here le... hope tml will be a beta day... keke... jux hope i can meet up with her this holiday... keke... ok... i tink i adding something here today... buai buai...
"Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain." --- Leo Buscaglia
Sick and tired: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 10:10 PM
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Monday, March 15, 2004
[add] jux wanna add a veri special thanx to my mei mei gan pin... reali thanx you for all ya concern ya? hope i get well soon behx... maybe you care de most... other frenx oso thank you... keke... i try get well soon.... *cough* *sneeze* gotta pull myself together if i wanna get well faster... thanx imoto... *muackx* yeps.. i having a headache now... damm sick... fever keep risisng up sia... jux wanting a free or not free reply onli... hope it comes soon... star gaze soon... bud the sky seems to hav to many overcast... yawnx... oh... jux now went to pack my drawer... then found last time notes... now i'm going to keep it... jux as a memento bahx... i can remember hopw i got the notes... of cos the notes is her photocopy de... hahax... anyway, i so toopid... last time no wan study hard hard... now then study... haix.. *arh* head spinning veri fast!!! can't hang on le... gtg... byex... nite nite... 12.35am (16/3/2004) [add ended]
It'S aLmoSt 96 hrS sInCe I hEaRd FrOm YoU...
phew... jux came back from csc... played badminton from 3 till 6+... so tired... tink i sick le... haix... anyways, did a little chinese today... study da 2A handbook... keke... sux it... suddenly half-way no mood so stop and use comp... then ming song call mi ask mi go play badminton... hahax... he is a fast learner... keke.. teach him awhile he quite pro le... played veri long.. at a point of time i reali veri sick.. keep can't play well.... then oso veri moody lahx... bud in da end got a grip of myself then play good good... budden towards the end, bad again... wth... hahax... 12am passed so fast... its aabt 20 hrs le... thanx fliends for keeping mi company... thanx worx... i won't do stupid one lahx... hahax... anyways, tml got d&t frm 10am - 4pm... is a long day... well, i accepted to everything le... tml smash the shuttle-cock let everything out... now then noe my real specialty is badminton... soccer is still my fav sport... haha... =p damm... feeling real sick now... whole body hot hot de... tink the onli thing tt can cheer mi on is a take care msg bahx... u c! always thinking so much! *slaps my face* ok lahx... dunno wad to say le... hu cares i sick anot... no one gives a f*cking dammsh*t abt this... now jux wan my hp to *tee tee, tee tee* hahax... then press open then c is *-------*... wth... thinking too much again... *slaps the other side of face* ok lahx... i ending here... put da lyrics of my webby song... take care guys... i sux too... hope can have the energy to star-gaze tonite... wan my hp to *tee tee*! come on manx... haix... wad is fated is fated le larx... byex...
Like A Rose ~ A1
And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from God above
For me to love
To hold and idolise
And as I hold your body near
I see this month through to a year
And then forever on
'Til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near
And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load...
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You gave me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed on earth
Just like a rose
And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong
I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
How you'll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears
And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do is follow you
To lighten off my load
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You gave me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors I close (ohuaaaaaaaaa)
In a world where anything goes
You gave me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
I bEliEvE iN fAtE: FetOrAy
darkside illusions 7:48 PM
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Sunday, March 14, 2004
GoSh... i'M rEsIgNinG sOoN...
ArH!!! today a tired day worx... haha... bud i tink its all worth it... today woke up damm early go to the kuku tuition... teach intergration there... then after tt my fliend go eat then we go back for extra tuition... did differentiation there... then i left abt 1 hr later to meet ming song at the mustafa center there... i goint to buy pull up bar... now its rightfully in my house... i'm going to do pull up... gotta build up... haha... yepx yepx... oso bought a running shirt... all together spent 40 sia... so haix... then went to bras besah to buy ming song handbook... bud in da end dun hav... wtf? haha.. then he go there choose notebook... keke... quite cool lehz tt book... keke... ass one lor.. there got sell no line book... early noe go there buy.. haix... sms siaoeh alot on da way... making a huge decision... haix... anyway, then i went back to kfc to eat da colonel special + large pop-corn chick + pepsi... ate alot sia.. haha... then went home fix my pull-up bar... mux try to pull 5 by this naffa test... haha... ok larx... then around 9 ewnt joggin with ming song... jog veri fast yet veri long... he damm fit sia... he before tt run so far in da end still sprint faster than mi... fit fit... lolx...
after tt still go to fitness court go do build-up... there got a couple actually dowan disturb budden haha... we still go... so *ostram* ... =S then we tok cock there... i lie on the sit-up there look at da sky... so beautiful... then we tok cock there... tok abt if onli this if onli tt... hehe.... damm lame bud funnie... oh ya... i cut my toopid hair to make it more toopid today... haha... quite short... make mi look so toot... hope school starts when i spike my hair again, i won't get caught... keke... ok lahx... i dunno wad to make... the stupid choice... stuck at da cross-road... jux happy tml no nid go school... enging here le... byebye... keke... thanx all ppl who have been nie to me... thanx... sorry... byebye... wan to build-up now... getting on holding strong... =)
QuieT aNd PeAce: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin
darkside illusions 11:30 PM
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Saturday, March 13, 2004
Y dO i FeEl ThIs WaY?
arhx~ another damm stupid day... kuku bird de... bud at least ah ger told mi something tt make me feel beta... at least i noe the words weren't said by her... keke... toopid me... bud it still doesn't seems so... not i dun trust... bud pf say until... omg... anyway, started da day with red cross today... sianx sia... starting, i and keng boon go humans room wait for them... play music, c blog surf around... then when the juniors come, we watched ju-on... -.-" wth manx... hahax... a uniform group can watch ju-on de... haha... of cos i prefer anyway, no nid teach mahx... bud still in da end after da show, went to teach the sec 1 foot drills... we improved until teaching them hentak, ke-kiri, ke-kanan, ke-blakan, chepat jalan and behenti... hahax... so cute sia... then the roxann lahx... nid specially teach her de.. keke... in da end of everything, hu ask mi tok so much qian one junior sweets... keke... bud they realli did good... keke...
anyone, here come the most haix part... when we have dismissed, i saw her went into school... actually did not c her de... duo kui siaoeh tell mi... hahax... den i said bye bye tink she did not hear or see bahx... she jux walk past mi... *wth* ah ger say she won't c de larx... haha... *shake head* quite disappointed lahx... always lyk tt de... hahax... anyways, went to mac with siaoeh... he eat big mac, i eat McSpicy... yawnx... toking crap there lahx... reali crap... den this toopid thing happen... we were supposed to go to csc de... so we shld take 21... straight after eating, we look at the 21 bus reach da bus-stop... lyk watching national day parade, he ask mi... we take 21 hor? i said yes then we stunned-ed... then out of sudden, we ran to da bus-stop... lolx... we two lyk damm dumb lorx... haha... go there no more lanes so we play pool... so funnie... today is one of da best game of pool i play... first time ball hit so accurately... how i did it? i dunno... whahaha... then after tt all siaoeh go marine parade, i go home... haix... walking all the way home myself... keep thinking back again... wtf? always lyk de mi... lolx... birds one lor... now mi webby dun hav the frosted love pic... it is meant to be there de lor... such a beautiful pic gone... tink is becos the webby fall... kuku bird one... nbm... i try again... sure can de... jux everything ain't going my way... manx... i'm tired of everything now... haix... y can't it be easier now? i jux wanna noe it frm you... hope ya tell mi soon... haix... wonder when ya noe... anyways, tml is tuition... after tt go cut hair... hope i won't look toot again... sianx... ending here... dunno wad to put... c have love love thingy can put anot... keke... jux for her bahx.... gotta study hard after this march holidays le... wan get A for my chinese... i dun believe i can't do it... tatax~ tink i not putting le... too lazy... cya guys then...
Cheers and love: FetOrAy a.k.a alvin
darkside illusions 9:16 PM
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Friday, March 12, 2004
i'M jUx tHaT sUxXy tO aNyOnE...
arh~! if love is blind, what am i seeing now? its jux so suxxy! i hate my life... its so cruel to me! haix... start da day with full of crap... differentiation bleach~ i tot today will be easy going... saw them walk past me... bud then i think back ah ger say she always wan to tok to mel alone, so i did not go there... haix... jux yan ba ba c them walk past... damm... haix... si to.Opid mi... yep... life jux ain't going my way... then it was chemistry and physics... yawnx... after tt was 2 periods geog... today lesson again is tok cock one... dunno tok until wad sia... tok abt sustainable development... haha... then 3 periods of chan mali chan... i'm then subdued by 3 ppl straight after school cos they wan to look at my torn paper... c on top write wad... in da end, kana free... haix... lolx... it was nth though... i came to school so happi... a fire in my head carry mi throughout to ask her by mouth whether wan go out not... bud in da end no chance ask... cos i was totally distraught to c them back bahx... spoil my mood? i dunno... well, ashley certainly wasn't in good mood... budden hope everything will be fine by now... maybe lyk today, the sun has came out and mark the end of a rainy week bahx... tml will be beta...
maybe da thing to cheer abt is i tok to her on da phone for a 2nd time? lame.... -.-" though a few minutes, it was worth it... keke... still so cartoonish voice... haha... so sianx dunno where to go so go to play soccer.... today dunno y keep zham the ball... ok... special request by my best fliend, siaoeh... he wants mi to say... HE SCORED TODAY AGAINST TKSS! waaa... good lor... *clap hands, cheer* abit tyco lahs... jux so unlucky da keeper lao ka lor... lolx... kick till 7+ lyk tt then go home... did not rply my last sms bahx... i always waiting de... good lorx winston... lolx... he so lucky manx... suan le... i jux gotta wait... hahax... aiya.... dunno lei... winston is damm good lor now... haha... oso wanna state tt ah ger u is da luckiest ger on earth... dunno wad u did in ur past life noe mi this tpe of fliend everything help you... lolx... mux appreciate horx... if not i dun help you le... u always nv help mi de... lolx... =X nbm... i'm jux fated to be lyk tt... haix... ok lo... end here bahx.... cya guys... i jux wanna be alone for da moment... thinking of wad is wrong with mi.. y can't i speak casually? dammit... nite nite ppl...
Always only you: FetOrAy
darkside illusions 9:33 PM
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Thursday, March 11, 2004
I wAs ChaRmEd agAiN! u RePliEd!
kukumalu bird bird! today is a damm tired day... ok... today pe was a breeze... keke... it seems veri ez now... cos i started to do build-up exercise... keke... well, it was quite cooling during pe sia... can dash the 2nd round... haha... then play bball after tt... haha... tio thrashed sia... oso dunno y... 3 vs 3.. jux managed to score a few points... haix... yepx... felt a bit tired lahx... bud i swear to continue my build-up... keke... then go recess.... today got mood eat... haha.... well, after recess is going rain again.. haix... bud lucky i got my pe lesson... haha... ok lahx, jux love the weather... actually is becos can pour water down after tt... haha... boring lessons straight to after school.... hmmm... finally ate duck rice again... y do they have duck rice onli once a week... so bad de... haha... anyways, did maths in school after eating... and tt ah ger, dunno last life is wad de, have mi as her ah boi, mux gib her copy... haix.... as i was doing, it was pouring damm hard... haha... well, pf came and again as usual, words flew past mi again... i dunno y i was always in da middle de... haha...
ok lo... today she took 13 with ah ger go her hse... jux did nth lahx... and then she finally replied bye bye lor... haha... then tt ming song... so oh man... cock lahx... haha... later then say... in da end took 125 home again... so sad when parting... bud cing her good le larx... haha... wad more can i say... eh... traffic jam.. i wanna chiong home lor.... haha... first time yearning for home... keke... anyway, back home at nite, ah ger ask mi do blog for her... she so good... always wan mi do things... bud nv pay back de... sobz... haha... then back to ming song, he say from the way she look at the bus-stop today, there is something special... ~*~*~*~ *not saying* *light shining* aiya... then wan choose skin for ah ger oso so nan... keep changing... beta blog... if not papa key siao pluck out i die... haha... ending here... * agree with ming song* some ppl still nid to lie to mi... y? hopeless le lor tt person... suan le... bye bye...
One LoVe onLy: FetOrAy
darkside illusions 9:38 PM
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
CoUrAge iS iMpoRtAnt wOrx...
oh man... hope tml rain stop so got pe... keke... looking forward to strengthening myself... haha... now this few days i went back to training... haha... last time got da 6 thingy nv go ju xu... now wan train back hard... bud its coming back.. lolx... i oso training arm power... keke... anyways, today hor, dunno is called good day or bad day... lolx... jux feel so much lyk shouting and ranting... lolx... wo shi guai kia... lolx... yup yup... nth much happened today cept the mrs yong told us abt the japanese thingy... haha... laugh my ass till north pole sia... lolx... xiao shu lin lahx... haix... reali is nth to blog manx... hmmm... ppl say i shouldn't blog abt the things lyk story de... so today dun write abt my thingy lorx... lolx... jux veri interesting lahx... haha... okok... dun say thingy today... i jux realise i'm cut out to dodge ppl... haha... today 3 ppl chase mi at the same time oso cannot zui dao... haha... onli they use the last method tt is take my bag then can... haha... i oso regretted not joining da sports day manx... so stupid... sianx... nth to blog le... tinki end here lahx... haha... take care guys cos its cold cold this few days worx... haha...
You ~ S Club 7
You are all I need to get me through (get me through now baby)
Like a fallin' star I fell for you (I fell for you)
Sweet anticipation
Is giving me the butterflies
And my heartbeat's racin'
'Cause lovin' you is beautifu
And you're so irresistible
So don't stop (don't stop)
What you're doin', baby
So good (so good)
And it drives me crazy
One touch, I'm in heaven, yeah
'Cause lovin' you's so beautiful baby,'cause
Chorus:
You are all I need to get me through (to get me through now)
Like a fallin' star I fell for you (I fell for you now)
You have taught me how to love
An angel sent from high above
And now I know that all I need is you
'Cause I need you
And you need me
And we'll always be forever
I thought I knew what love was
I always ended up in tears (ended up in tears)
It's just the way my world was
Until you walked into my life
It's something that I just can’t hide
Real love (real love)
Has come our way
And I know (I know)
That it's here to stay
And it feels
Like never before
'Cause lovin' you's so beautiful baby, 'cause
Chorus
'Cause I need you
And you need me
And we'll always stay together
'Cause I need you
And you need me
And we'll always be forever
You're my inspiration
my world just seems a brighter place
I just wanna tell you (tell me)
I've never ever felt this way
I never thought I'd see the day
Real love (real love)
Has come our way
And I know (I know)
That it's here to stay
And it feels
Like never before
'Cause lovin' you's so beautiful baby, 'cause
Chorus x3 to fade
p.s: ok lahx... this song is reali wat i wan say lorx... so meaningful rite? lolx... i got a new fav animal... tt is the harp seal... it is so damm damm cute manx... haha... ok lahx... i was jux so stunned-ed by her today... keke... anyway, for this few days, i wanna gib a big thanx to SIAOEH! haha... he is reali damm steady fliend... =) good fliend worx... ok lahx... dun say too much... jux wanna say i hate liars.. tts all... haha... hav a nice nite ppl... *waiting* screwed up life... one day i will hav da courage de... hope tt person hor, can oso won't so malu lorx.... lolx! =x not going say le... wait ppl complain... haha.... byex!
LovInG oNe AnD onLy OnE: FetOrAy
darkside illusions 9:51 PM
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