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Monday, September 06, 2004

lesson learned

today ah. nth much oso. go to east coast park for da red cross bbq thingy norx. hahax. go there do nth oso. juz eat and slack. haix. so long no go to my second home, beach. so today finally go there. hmm. the sec 1 gers. rrly dunno wad to say lahx. all flood around the xtra ppl who came. dunno wad to say. budden me and ren jie walk around with weng foo crapping and joking around. lolx. toking dirty sometimes. hahax. hmmm. den when ren jie left, i found my old place and began sitting there, letting the wind blow me. so nice. tot of alot of things. since sec 1 all these. den the things we gone thru. still can't forget the chalet. hahax. hmm. its 1 plus now sia. nbm. dunno lehx. juz feel ttt everything is so vivid. den came the problem. problem i am now with. dunno wad to do.

den when i sit there someone come offer me hotdogs. after eating, i take the stick hard hard press into the break water. hmm. the thing broke into half. den lyk a electric surge, sumthin came into my mind. i xiang tong le. everything has a ying and has a guo. juz lyk the taoism thingy. yeps. the stick is soft, the stone is hard. when i try to force it to poke thru it, cannot. juz lyk love. no matter how hard u do, cannot = cannot. haix. den it breaks. the stone doesn't feel anything, the stick breaks. and juz lyk love. when force, u juz hurting urself. finally u break down. wad cannot means cannot. haix. and i noe. since she said lyk tt means she nv cares for me before. and i've been trying to gib myself hope. maybe its time. all these lil things i do add up to nth. the time she gave me so much hope is all juz fake. i can't believe. it looks so real. bud now, i noe. u ish juz bluffing me. i am stupid. so now, i've decided my mind on you. hee. i will treause *ahem* from now on. at least she cares more. she loves me more. hee. i'm happy with it. this bbq not onli brings the mjr rcy ppl together bud oso let me learn an important lesson. not everyday ish sunday afterall. =)

Jars oF Clay: FetOrAy a.k.a Alvin

darkside illusions 1:40 AM

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