Saturday, April 09, 2005
sick..
ya. today went for the poly check up with ren jie in da morning.. waited so long before we finished our medical report, our x rays. oh mans. met evil ger and auntie amanda there too. hmm. so qiao de. actually meeting jared and guys at mac at 1.30 bud due to the super delay, me and rj went back to school on our own. wasnt feeling well. head was giddy. dunno y. oh well. today was the muster parade. nth unusual. RC was erh.. so funnie. the squad. juz dunno how to say. hmm. after muster parade. went to back of technical block see the seniors now teach footdrill. so slack sia. bud wadeva. meant to go to the parade square to see the sec 3s. well. met mr chew on the way. so we chatted for abt 10 minutes. saying abt results. the school. hahas. quite chatty. mr chew is a nice guy. so lotsa of my old frenz. oh great. onli blur pig call wo. and shu hui and tuition. jia yin saw me and demanded presents. >.< feeling quite giddy. stayed in school till 6+ den went bugis find the other ex-2D peeps. was quite sick so dinda tok much. eh. she was there. budden i dunno wad to say. is lyk dunno wad more to say. met them in food court. den dey decided to take neo. what the monkey. oh well. joined in. gave some posers and went out. felt quite sad. dunno y. so went off to the CD shop on my own. well i took one of the neos. i dinda pay for the 10 bucks or 9 bucks? so dinda say anything. the others took 3 or wad i tink. dunno. went mos later. sat down. they chatted. i dunno wad to do so listen mp3 chatting in sometimes. before going off, returned 30 bucks to her. now nv owe her anything ler. ah.. ya. tts abt all. they went off. was thinking later sure at same bus stop with her and erh. i tink jared bahs. was feeling quite awkard so went arcade play a game of guitar before heading home. they were gone by den.
ah. maybe today is the last day i'll ever see her again for this time. she'll be busy with her JC life. knowing new guy. wont be surprised if she go steady. ah. wad am i toking. feel so useles.. i dunno. well. at least the last memory of us is in the grp neo we took. for one moment i tink. yeah. maybe its juz a blessing in disguise. u were never mine. hais. bud how i wish i can make u mine. atgh. wad am i toking again. grr.. *kok my head* i dunno y. i really wanna say i HATE you. really. landing my in this state. people come kill me. i really HATE it. budden this is the ironic part. how come i can onli say in words. bud my actions still show i love u a lot? how come when always i see you. the hatred is gone. how i wish there was onli 2 of us juz now. i'm still floating in the past. thinking that one day we can really have the happy ending. we walking down the streets. hais. all is gone now. feeling sour, bitter, salty bud not sweet. oh gurl. tell me. none of my frenz have the antidode to the poison. well. i guess the remedy is you afterall. would wanna patch with u someday. hais. bud juz lyk wad u said.. if we really are meant. later on with life we'll meet again. budden i really noe the answer to this unchangable fate. we wont meet again ler. our lifes wont cross. i tink for now we wont see each other again ler. today may juz be the last time. yeah. dunno if ya seeing this or not.. bud.. though we dun even sms now or tok now. i hope one day u can really achieve wad u desire. if there's any problems, come to me. i may not be anything to you. bf, bestest frenz or anything. bud if one day u really wanna come back, i'm always here. untouchable, unmovable waiting unconditionally. this is the promise i made and will never break till the day u choose to i do. love ya. may life be great for you. hais.. juz feel lyk blacking out and leave everything behind...
Akino Lee - Departure
Oh... Oh...
(The) night has gone away, morning comes
Dosen't seem that long feel it
Hardly had one word to say
Morning dawns there come a parting day
You are my own intimate friend
Cause you said "Don't lay down your life"
Without a single word I stood there
(I) made up my mind to go through with dream
One day, you said that you went on a journey
You said you made a success
And you made your way in the world oh yeah
You work as hard as ever don't you
Life is very short and also shine
Don't turn round your face
Don't worry you can work it out
I know you wont to come home
Don't give up now
I pray you take a chance tonight
Believe and going your way
There's a great proverb someone said
Time is never die never stop
Well, we have the right to go there
It is all up to you yes, up to you
Oh... Oh...
Every tomorrow brings its bread
Yes, so much here is hard to lose
You made up to get your dream
Oh never hesitate
I wish you might succeed! For you
You are the only my friend
Distant journey
Sometime you're feeling so sad
Dreaming journey
Maybe you lose your heart
Dear my friend
Stick to it! hold fast to the end
Forever we are good good friend, I miss you
I promise you to aid your dream
I don't know what to say
But I... here I am
You are the best friend in my life
Forever you stay in my heart in my soul
I feel like this is departure
Oh... Oh...
darkside illusions 1:14 AM
