Saturday, June 11, 2005
save me from this sad world..
ok time to blog. cannot slack ler. projects are all piling in day by day. bud i'm slacking. thinking of useless things. i shoulda be thinking of that now.. not now. exams are coming. projects are piling in. i nid to concentrate. bud y is this on my mind? y is the thing still revolving in my head? i need the antidode. i need somthing. there's something missing in my world now. is it love? i dunno. i need a motivation. motivation from anything. may it be objects, humans, love, it, trees, cow, buildings wadeva. i nid to find that motivation. bud in my mind there's juz one thing to push me on forward more. YOU! yes. thats you. when will ya noe? hais. i really need you now. i need you to be by my side. we will be studying together. having sweet lil moments. thats love i always wanted. couples studying together. playing games together. lyk pool. or wad.. go chill out at the beach in da nite together. sitting together. juz silence. look into each other eyes. let the love do the talking. looking at stars. having real romantic moments. feeding each other. awww. how i wish all these can come true. yet i cant find this story of mine. clinging on to something that seems so far. wad have i done? i dun even noe. all i noe was. u took my heart away. T.T and now someone is all on your words. and here i am. doing nth lyk i can. something swept passed me. kinda blurred. budden its juz jealousy. yeah. i tink thats it.
yeah. thats abt all. i really cant stand it. sometimes i tink. y muz i be lyk that? how come i juz cannot be a normal guy. i feel a monster in me. waiting to unleash the terror within. yet the angel side of me forbade this awful deed. all i can do is wait. wait for the sun to rise from the west. that's when my miracle will come true. its something that will never i guess. sometimes i juz wish to black out for 1 year. and when i wake up i know none of my friends. i wan remake my friends. i want to get that perfect ending to my story this time. gib me the power. oh lord give me the strength within. its so hard. yet i know. i'm just not good enuff for ya. when u want something fate doesn't put u with it. yet they purposely put some other things close. i'm born to suffer. my past hurts. the present hurts. the future looks lyk a black hole. no lights coming out. how i wish my past was successful. i need not think so much now. sometimes i do regret wad i do bud wad so ever. i submit myself to fate. bud luckily i met great peeps in my poly life. nic, josh, wayne, sandy jie, camel, melody, so many great peeps. my lecturers treat me well and i talked arnd lyk friends with them. maybe i should juz be contented with wad i had and shoulda ask for more. hais. sad... real real sad. if only. so many if. sad.. real sad...
ps: sandy jie thanks for toking to me. ya really a great jie to me though u treat wo liddat. =x love ya lots. =)) i needed someone to tok to real bad. to pour things out. and u were there for me. xie xie. ^^ i feel kinda better bud not real good. still kinda sad.. hais.
Boulevard of Broken Dreams
I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home to me and I walk alone
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
(Chorus)
My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
Till then I walk alone
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone
Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...
*Chorus*
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah
I walk alone
I walk a...
I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..
*Chorus*
darkside illusions 3:16 AM
