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Wednesday, January 18, 2006

confused mind. shattered dreams

oh yay! open house in 1 day's time. cant wait seriously. xD meeting new faces to tp. hope this yr lotsa nice freshies will come. woots. yeah. projects handing in are near. so is the final exams. =.= gosh. this term is really so so short.

here's a summary. hope i dun get anything wrong..

this thurs: CMSK grading
this fri: FNDB hand in
next mon: IDES hand in
next wed: OOPG hand in, CMSY hand in
next thurs: japanese listening test
the week after project week: study week
the week after study week: exams! bah~~ T.T

alright. so many things. juz add in a japanese role play thingy during tutorial and another test for that. gosh.. oopg i'm doing shitty stuffs. ides, i tink i'm the worse in class. dun say fndb and cmsy le. hais... looks lyk IT stuffs aint for me. T.T

anyway.. yeah. doing works and stuffs here and there. yest juz got 3/4 of my new year stuffs. actually i'm left with one more jeans. should i buy a cap? gosh. my money. T.T maybe i shld use my hong bao money i guess. oh well. it seems every year my hong bao $$ is getting lesser and lesser. i dunno y. guess its cos of the economic bahs. sad case. everyone's giving lesser. form 12 to 10 to 8. gosh...

yeah. another thing. i feel so argh. why do ppl change so much? from someone i know. when ppl's busy they'll juz ignore other ppl arnd them. juz talk and interact with ppl that is of use to them or smth. i really dunno y. hais. ppl are lyk juz going off. i juz feel i'm the black sheeps for u guys already. feeling so out of touch and reach. oh well. guess its me thats changing. i really dunno wad more can i do. seems lyk i'm not frm the world of u guys nemore. cant click. and i tot we can go on more. foolish me. foolish lex.

yeah. juz another thing. valentine's approaching. and i still dunno wad to do. should i juz ask and have another setback? or shld i juz spend that very day all alone? i dun dare to ask. someone pls teach me how. hais. i dun wanna spoil everything. bad experiences really hold me back now. yet somehow i keep dreaming of tt day to come. how? hais.. lex, u really changed alot. u really become more and more. eh... no more guts to do this kinda things. guess its cos i'm hurt enuff. thats all. tatas.

darkside illusions 2:48 PM

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