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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

unforgettable experience

~~and y cant we at least be friends or smth? no one will noe how hurting things can turn out to be.~~ ppl arnd may not feel but to a scorpio, they can feel everything. juz abt everything. cos they can read ppl's mind and feel things very easily. its smth that cannot be taken away frm them.

went for centis dinner together today. was really kinda out and mood and stuff towards the end. was happily chatting and joking. when u came, i felt so happy and stuff. but otherwise. not even a hi or a glance to mean anything. when we left, everyone was shot a bye juz except me and stuff. there i was saying bye and waving yet u nv turn to me. i was thinking. aint even friends say bye or smth? ~~am i not even a fren anymore?~~

went really out of mood and stuff. dunno wad more can i do already.. shy i guess. i am too u noe. actually its lyk how much i train myself not to. i used to be damm super shy with u arnd. its normal in my opinion. but i told myself. i must not be. if i really wanna win ur heart, i must not! how can love be shy? so slowly i tried to loosen myself. and stuff. but in the end, i tink i juz killed off everything i had. its kinda disappointing and stuff. i played the fire too much. had too much expectations and stuffs.

lex, wake up ur bloody idea. not that u got the whole picture figured out. its time to make a good decision and stuff. u can do it. 1 yr is enuff for u to change everything. f*ck things that i tot i can do. there are indeed things that cannot be achieve with determination and stuff. its juz proven.

snap out of it. u got ppl asking u. y are u giving up a forest for a tree dude! wake up! yeah i will. give me time to chill. i hope at least the next time, u can at least say a bye to me or so... thats at least all i ask. but i wonder. when's the next time..

to cy: thanks for everything seriously. u spat all out which i really wanted to noe. ya someone great. really. if ever you two got together, treat my chao ah nie good yeah? thats all i ask for. for she's the 2nd real person to capture my heart this deep. i give my best. surely. and as i said a scorpio's instinct are always right, believe it or not. u have feelings for her. u are luckier den me in such a way. she's a great girl. and i hope the least you can do is try ur best too. i aint seeing you as a rival. ya a good fren one can ever ask for. because ya truthful in your words. =)

i guess its high-time to say names already.. so...
to jeanie: yep. its been great knowing you these 5 months or so. i guess fate juz doesnt want me to get close and stuff. playing the station games back in otc, having fun in camps and ALP and stuff. all these are things that will stay with me. ya juz that unique girl i see. keep that up and i believe someday, somehow, we'll get together and play those stupid things again. really. thanks for those memories. dun be frustrated anymore. love may come and love may go. but treasure wad u have. and i believe i still owe u somethings. ~~i will return it de. so look out for it.~~ =) [ edit ] take real care and stuff. esp ur sickness. its been worrying me for a month or so le so pls take care k? i cant be there but at least i do care. =D [ /edit ]

to yuting, kiwi, mayb: thanks for everything. i love you guys to bit and pieces. =D my true friends in poly. =D

its always easier to fall in love than to letting go.
true happiness is when u see the girl u love falling in love with someone she truely loves - lesson learned

darkside illusions 1:02 AM

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