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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

friends? ><

first thing shld come first! happy 50th bday to me yandao and best dad! you've been my dad for 17yrs and i love you so! a big muacks to ya daddy! you rocks my life! ^^ live long and be healthy! hope ya leg injury recovers soon! <3

yep its been kinda a hectic 2 days or so for me. rushing thru my stmd project and stuff. gosh. i hope my tests will end soon. >< i want some 2 weeks break! =x hahas.

yep. and mr.joshua. thanks sia. ask me do the things first when u haven do. >< make me sleep the whole days cos i stayed up to do. argh. exdr. =x hahas. gosh. y am i lyk so easy listen to ppl de ah? i'm too soft? o.O hahas. and term tests is round the corner >< hope i can make it. everything seems so fast and i've not studied yet! i'm gonna study! i dun care! hahas. IND sure is tough. with so much fun but hard courses. hahas.

gosh. yeah. sometimes i tink i've been wasting my time finding my gem here and there. tend to be played though sometimes i got the feeling i playing ppl. but usually is being played or smth. and every time i need to tell myself, uh-uh. lex, ya not cut out for that. hahas. how i wish sometimes i can juz relax off and let it come. but somehow this juz aint me. >< i want it to come soon! >< *bui!*

yeah. slowly as time goes, people tend to forget and leave me out of their minds. as life moves on i guess. see how my sec school juniors and frenz say keep in contact and stuff yet now none even remembered my existence? yeah. my fren bday passed this month. we used to be close and stuff and i msg tt fren happy bday lyk i did for 6 yrs. now, the fren nv even in turn say a thank you or smth. oh well. good thing me eh?

my other fren Z bday juz passed too. wished Z bday. and yeah. Z replied but lyk kinda shoo and ok ok. i noe u noe type of tone and stuff. how bad feeling i was to know. it was nv there to begin me. all me part on thinking that frenz i know now stays. so much for my happy ending. and so i realised nth really good comes out if u treat ur frenz really well. many ppl nowadays treat others for granted. thinking it is a must or a responsibility to do for them or remember it. i guess i'm the latter side of doing those stupid things for them. cant blame. thats me. ppl often treat me for granted maybe cos i juz dun have the heart to say no? eh? oh well. guess thats all for friendship. or any relationship.

i'm tired, i've given up. damm. its really saddening to see after 17+ years, not even 1 fren is 100% true. hais. lex is alone afterall. and nope. i dun need any pity. i will still live my life with a smile and face it strongly. for i believe in my determination. to me, lex rocks big time. =)

darkside illusions 2:34 AM

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